Question for you guys. So I’ve been dealing with a religious fear since am incident happened last year. An exposure could be to look up preachers talking about this particular issue/sin and letting me sit with the anxiety. BUT it could also be a way to reassure myself when I’ve talked to all of my spiritual mentors/pastors and they’ve all told me the same thing. What is the best way to navigate this? I’m sitting here and having this anxious urge to google what a particular pastor preaches about this issue for fear that maybe someone thinks differently about it and I’m really actually screwed lol. (Not funny but kind of funny) to me if it’s driven by anxiety it’s a compulsion. Not sure how to navigate that.

I’m not expert but it would seem to me like the move would be to not google stuff. I’m a relatively new Christian (that’s why I’m here😔) so I haven’t read into what the unpardonable sin is, because I thought if I did I would get intrusive thoughts about it. But, and this is my opinion on the issue from a factual standpoint, the Bible makes it very clear that there is no sin that could not be forgiven. If there someone beyond the love of God, then Jesus didn’t die for anything. I heard that and thought that an “unpardonable sin” would be to be unrepentant, as by definition, you won’t be pardoned if you don’t repent. But, I don’t know that last part, though I’m fairly confident that all sins can be forgiven. Hope this helps!

@Anonymous Thanks for they feedback! Yes you have to be SUPER what you look up online for SURE! OCD got triggered for me the first time when I got saved at 19 and I’ve made all those mistakes. This was a particular preacher I was already familiar with.

@JessicaJoy I’m not saying my age but I’m young and I’ve been saved (I think, this ocd garbage is making me question) for like two months. Started like a week afterward

@Anonymous Yeah if you had an underlying disorder than a major life change can trigger it. I’d love to share a few resources with you if you’d like? I’ve been walking with the Lord for about 12 years ❤️

@JessicaJoy See I didn’t even know I had it at the time. I had gotten harm ocd a while before, but we didn’t know that’s what it was. We chalked it up to “the virtual school was messing with your head” but nevertheless I ended up getting baptized. Then that’s when the religious ocd started messing up and I gotta be honest, I ain’t doing so hot.

@Anonymous I’m gonna share something with you! Helped me when I first was diagnosed ❤️ https://www.accounseling.org/coping-statements-for-christians-with-ocd-scrupulosity/ https://ocdandchristianity.com

@Anonymous They are two different links Sorry they are so close together

@JessicaJoy Hey thanks. I just did my intake yesterday and I’m glad I’m getting in therapy soon cuz I can’t live like this

@Anonymous Brain lock is a wonderful book! Also; “Can Christianity Cure OCD”

@Anonymous The coping skills helped me SO much.

@JessicaJoy See, it’s scary. When the ocd first started, I would be in tears because I thought I was losing this thing, or this person, that felt so... perfect. Look I’m still in high school. But I could tell, Jesus is... complete and “good.” But not like the good that like your favorite rc show is, but like, he IS GOOD itself. I told my mother that I envy the others my age. They confuse me. They have access to certainty. But they don’t use it to the fullest, and I feel sorry for them, it’s just so inefficient. It’s like when you give your cake to someone just to be nice but they don’t eat it but you would have, you know?

@Anonymous You seem to be pure hearted and that is so precious to God. One thing I have learned is that sometimes those of us who are sensitive and vulnerable to OCD tend to be very concerned with truth. We want to be close to Jesus and obey His voice. The hard part is we can’t let OCD take us out. We learn to trust Him with EVERYTHING we have. When we can’t understand we have to lean completely on Him. I’m here for you. I’m 31; id love to be an ear if you need someone to talk to. I don’t know if they have messenger on here? My Instagram is jessicajoy30 (:

@When nothings sacred, there’s nothing to lose If you feel comfortable! I’m assuming you’re a dude; so you may be more comfortable with a guy lol. But I have a little brother about your age who had ocd as well. I just know how hard it is ❤️

@JessicaJoy I don’t have messenger or Instagram but thanks anyway. We’ll see eachother one day, if you catch my drift. I mean, I hope. This ocd stuff has got me all messed up.

@When nothings sacred, there’s nothing to lose And I was talking about in Heaven by the way in case you didn’t understand