real event ocd coming to attack when i am trying to sleep...i feel so much regret and guilt, i just keep writing in my notes like someone can hear me...:( i wish i could turn back time

(for example) "i regret that i bullied someone & i'm afraid they'll confront me" - proceed with "and then they'll confront me and space lasers will come down and wipe me off the face of the earth!"

@anonymous thank you. i have so many regrets about showing my friend my sh scars, i saw a tik tok and people were saying “if you do this youre disgusting and attention seeking” but i know i didn’t want attention, i wanted help, but definitely shouldn’t have showed them and i regret it. i never meant to hurt anyone and my ocd is saying i am horrible and what if i am secretly evil and it’s so painful. but thank you for helping me see that, this was a long time ago, but of course my ocd won’t let it go. :(

@hope my rule of thumb is that there is no reason to whatever your ocd is making you worry about. even if there is, the actual threat or danger is severely distorted by your ocd. the more time you spend trying to rationalize it or reassure yourself the worse the ocd will hit you. if you can look at it as a tv in the background of a bar that you don't really pay attention to - but that you don't avoid. by recognizing that it's there yet still going on with your life you're able to control the feelings associated with it. if you can take the feelings out of the situation, you can begin to reconstruct the thought with a therapist. it's not perfect, but it helps you tolerate your thoughts a little better.

@anonymous also... tiktok is not real life. the internet is a harsh and critical place full of triggers for ocd. people are quick to jump to conclusions about others' actions - but it's counterintuitive because you can never be "correct" or "woke" enough to satisfy the critical nature of the internet. people are quick to judge what they don't understand or experience. they say what they think is right and invalidate anyone with a different opinion. you can't limit yourself to what other people say, especially on the internet, even in your worst fears.

@anonymous thank you!!! you’re so right, i needed that reminder because for the last 24 hours i’ve been going back to this tik tok and reading all the harsh comments and feeling even more guilty. i know these people don’t know me or my intent, i guess my ocd just attached to it because it was something to obsess over. thank you for being so kind and helping :) it means a lot!!

@hope of course! let me know how it goes :) also talk with a therapist! you're definitely not alone here and a therapist is your best option for recovery!

dont be sorry, you’re right. it’s difficult:(

OCD loves to get us when we’re trying to rest. Comfort and strength your way. 💪🏼💜

@ARTnotOCD thank you so so much! i will be listening <3 you’re right. it definitely does!