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Omg I can’t tell you the amount of times I’ve worried about this exact thing. I daydream a lot about scenarios of guys I like/ celebs whatever and it’s always in like third person, kinda like I’m watching a film? And I used to always worry this meant something, I can’t think in first person at all, like it’s so difficult unless it’s a memeory obviously. But the second it’s a day dream it’s always in third person :(
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Exactly! It’s like me and him but from a third person pov. And same here, I even struggle with first person because I like to close my eyes during moments and instead focus on the feeling and sounds. I’m glad to know I’m not alone
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@PinkLotus Honestly I think it’s just different ways of thinking! My dad for example can’t even picture anything in his head! When I say to him I can fully visualise scenes like a film it blows his mind hahah, he can’t even dream!
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@Melodyocd Yess!! My friend says she thinks of words instead when she pictures things or they’re very blurry. But for me I try to remember every small detail to make it move in my mind!
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@PinkLotus Yes same!! I’ve always had a very visual imagination, honestly I’d love to see some research about this, I imagine most people with ocd having imaginations like this? I feel like if I just saw words in my brain I’d be much less of an over thinker
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@Melodyocd Honestly! I’d much rather have words in my brain then all these vivid thoughts and images. I would miss my fantasies tho
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@PinkLotus Yeah same haha, I use my fantasies for coping mechanisms hahah
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I don’t know if it does for everyone but it did for me! Like I was so shy and worried all the time that I would do something weird/wrong or that I wasn’t adequate enough or turned on enough. It was all one big stress fest. That (almost) all went away with time and experience and great partners! The hocd though I did therapy for and still have to manage, trying to use the techniques in therapy.
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That makes a lot of sense! So glad you managed to overcome that and I’m so glad you’re happy!
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Thank you for sharing !!
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Wow I relate to these comments so much. It’s nice to not feel so alone ❤️🥺🥰 but also yeah I used to get stressed a lot but did realize that everyone has different ways of thinking and visualizing so it doesn’t mean anything
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Nvm it doesn’t matter, I like what I like. It doesn’t mean I’m lesbian just because I fantasize about me and a MALE
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I’m just going to rant here about sex and intimacy because I feel like I have so many false notions and fears around it that make it so hard for me and thus just fuel my obsession 1.) sex is SO glorified in the media, you grow up with this idea that you’re supposed to have mind blowing orgasms every time and if you don’t then somehow you and your partner aren’t meant for each other 2.) the porn I watched as a stupid child made me feel like I was a sex object so when the time came to be intimate I had no clue as to what I wanted to do and how to please because all I knew was basically lay there and let your partner do the work 3.) adults make it seem like it’s so wrong to partake in intimacy. I do believe sex is sacred and should be shared with someone special but there’s nothing wrong with wanting to have an open sex life. My parents made me feel like I was a whore or something if I wanted to enjoy anything so now whenever I do things I feel like I’m doing something wrong and committing a crime 4.) I have such a huge fear of getting pregnant that it’s heavy on my mind when doing things 5.) I feel like my body looks weird or smells bad and it’s kinda scary to think of exposing myself like that to my partner 6.) I worry that if I don’t please my partner he’s going to abandon me or cheat or not think highly of me which isn’t the case but it’s true. I feel pressured to do well 7.) I’m shy and awkward and sometimes it’s so WEIRD to just sit there in silence doing something for my partner. I love knowing I’m pleasing him but if he’s quiet and makes no reaction it’s like um...why are we doing this? 8.) his body still freaks me out a little like I still can’t believe i can have someone in front of me so exposed. I want to please him but reaching out to touch him is so scary because I don’t know what to do and I don’t want to do a bad job 9.) my anxiety makes it really hard to focus sometimes it’s like, “Do I really like this?” “You’re forcing it.” “You’re only getting off to yourself.” or ill just start comparing myself to people from his past or if I’m stressed I simply won’t be in the mood 10.) I’m honestly not a super sexual person, it’s more about the connection for me. The actual sex itself doesn’t do much for me, it’s all about me and my partner close together sharing pleasure. 11.) it’s just scary, it’s a lot to take on and it’s my first time being with someone and I want it to be good. I love him. We deserve to feel good in our physical bond.
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We are the same person I swear hahah, I have all of these worries about me being intimate too! It’s so exposing for me it’s scary, especially because I haven’t done it before I feel like I’m going to be awful at it, and I know I’m just gonna be anxious the whole time and I’ll be worrying that I’m not enjoying it or he’s not enjoying it. Honestly I think these are all things people with anxiety face when being intimate, not just people with ocd and this theme! Thank you so so much for sharing all of this :) makes me feel less alone
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@Melodyocd Yess!! The first time I made out with my partner and he got a little.. handsy was amazing! I loved it but when it came down for me to reciprocate I was like a deer in headlights. It took me a long time to understand why these things were off. Honestly just be vocal and talk about what you two like!! I’m glad to know I’m not alone and I hope in time we are all able to work through our issues
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@PinkLotus Yes exactly!! And same, good luck to you! You’re doing so well :)
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@Melodyocd Maybe after treating the ocd you can talk to a therapist about these things too. I think that they are super common feelings. Also, how old are you? I used to feel like this but most of it went away as I got older, more experienced, more comfortable, etc.
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@Susan4444 Pretty sure your question is directed at PinkLotus, but thought me giving my experience would help too haha. I’m 21, a virgin and very sexually and romantically inexperienced (all due to my anxiety problems really). I hope all of this goes away as we get older haha!
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@Susan4444 Adding on to you guys, I’m 17! My boyfriend and I are both virgins, he has more experience but I’m super inexperienced and he’s also my first real romantic relationship. It’s a huge relief to know that this isn’t super out of the ordinary :)
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It’s like I’m watching us but also watching what he does to me
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I’ve been struggling with something that’s been really overwhelming, and I’m hoping to get some perspective from others here. I feel a lot of guilt about it, and I’m not sure if I’m alone in this experience. Lately, I’ve found myself daydreaming about romantic situations or getting caught up in ‘what if’ scenarios—where I wonder if I could develop feelings for someone else, or if someone develops feelings for me. The thing is, I’m in a relationship that I love, and I don’t want to act on these thoughts at all. What makes it even harder is that these thoughts often hyperfixate on one specific friend, and sometimes they feel entertaining or give me a dopamine rush. But then, of course, I feel even more guilty because it makes me feel like I’m betraying my boyfriend. These thoughts usually happen when I’m upset and looking for comfort, but then they morph into romantic scenarios, which makes me feel so disloyal. I’m constantly going back and forth between feeling curious or entertained by the thoughts and then feeling horrible for even allowing them to happen in the first place. I keep confessing these thoughts to my boyfriend, and he tries to be understanding. He’s just never been the type to daydream, so he doesn’t know if this is something other people experience or if it’s just me. I feel like such an awful girlfriend. Has anyone else dealt with something like this?
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Am I the only one who experiences this, or is it more common than I think? Sometimes, I find myself imagining what a couple’s sex life might look like, or what a person’s body might be like. I think it’s driven by curiosity, and I focus on it for a few seconds. When it comes to family members, teenagers, or anyone I feel uncomfortable imagining in this way, I used to be able to shake it off as an intrusive thought. But lately, I can’t seem to let go of it anymore. I’ve become used to the anxiety, but I’m stuck questioning what this means about me, especially since I’ve taken time to think about it. This is really stressing me out because I feel like a pervert. I’m hoping that this is something more common than I realize and that OCD is just distorting something. I feel like I really need some insight here. Any advice?
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So I was enjoying some “me time” and had intrusive thoughts, but it felt like just for a second I liked it. Like I’m holding myself back from “enjoying” the thought. And the thoughts are related to things I was into when I was younger, but sometimes I feel like I might still like it even though 9/10 I wouldn’t give it a second thought. Is this common? Or is this just denial? Thanks
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