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Can you give an example of “pure o” thought? Just now learning about the different types. But have been dealing with ocd since childhood
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Most of my "pure O" thoughts are based around a fear of changing my opinion or in other words something that I don't want to believe is true. Especially about something that I really care about or something that I'm actually obsessed with and I really like. I don't know if I'm making sense though. To answer your question my ocd didn't start in my childhood it started in my adolescence. When I was 15 to be exact. Do you know anyone with ocd who has the same thoughts?
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Not sure if that’s the same as me...I feel like i am going to mess things up, something I care about: an interaction with someone, a work thing, my marriage etc. I imagine the worst and make it happen on purpose and use that as a way to be like”see, you didn’t deserve it any other way” I can’t let it go well because that would mean I could be happy. I hate thinking or being this way but I have no choice to punish myself. I have lost all confidence in everything, I doubt all my own thoughts...etc. Does that make any sense?
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Yeah it's basically what I'm experiencing as well. I doubt everything I believe in. Like I want myself to be a certain way or have certain thoughts or opinions and I fear I can't be like that and it causes me alot of distress and anxiety. I don't want to change as a person and I always feel like I'm changing or being things or believing in things I don't want to believe in. It's very hard.
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When you say you want yourself to be a certain way...but you can’t and it’s sucks. I totally get that! Wondering, are those thoughts positive? Like you would be happier if you could be a certain way? Then you said you don’t want to change as a person but find your self morphing into those things you think you should? I feel like I am always thinking about how I NEED/WANT to change myself. It’s all so exhausting isn’t it? I always think about how amazing I could be if so much of my brain power / energy/ focus wasn’t about this shit!
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I mean the way I've always been. That's who I always want to be. Basically who I was before ocd. So I can't say the thoughts are positive when they make me feel like I have no control over my life and making me become things I don't want to be or believe in things I don't want to believe in. It's very hard to live with.
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So maybe the title wasn't the best to to put it but when you guys start having obsessive thoughts how do you stop them before it turns into compulsions and anxiety?
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I cannot for the life of me stop ruminating or checking how I feel about thoughts or focusing on thoughts or creating more thoughts. I feel like I’m losing my mind. I want to scream. I try not to ruminate about the thoughts, but trying not to just makes me think about them more. I try not to check, but somehow, I still check. I want to let a thought sit in the background, but the more I try not to focus on it, the more I end up focusing on it. I don’t want the thought to expand because that feels like engaging with it, but I can’t just stop it from expanding. It feels impossible. People keep saying I’m in control of my compulsions, and maybe that’s true for the physical ones. But when it comes to the mental compulsions, I swear I have no control. It feels like I’m missing something that everyone else seems to have, like there’s some tool they’re using that I don’t have. Controlling mental compulsions has never felt possible for me. I’m starting to fear them. And every time someone says I’m in control and can just choose not to do them, I end up beating myself up even more when they happen. Or when I *choose* I guess. I don’t know anymore. If this is my fault, if I’m responsible for this, then what does that make me? I feel like a monster. I am at my wits’ end. How am I supposed to control mental compulsions when it feels like they control me? I freak out when they happen. They don’t bring me relief, they just make me panic. I want it to stop so bad.
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When I was a child, before I knew this was OCD, I struggled with constant "magical thinking" compulsions (don't step on the crack or mom's back will actually break, etc). When I later learned this was OCD, it almost immediately solved it. Any time I got a magical thought, I would say to myself "that's just an OCD thought. ignore it." and it just stopped coming! Like seriously it fixed the magical thinking stuff forever. But of course the OCD has resurfaced in other ways. So naturally, I've tried to use the same strategy since I had so much success with it previously. But I wonder sometimes if telling myself "that's just OCD" is almost functioning as a reassurance compulsion? I hate how meta this gets. For example, I have ROCD that comes and goes. So sometimes I'll get a thought like "what if i'm still in love with my ex?" and then I'll tell myself "that's obviously just an ROCD thought" and will feel relief, almost like reassurance. But it comes back. So is telling myself that it's OCD a reassurance compulsion ?? It's just so weird because it worked so perfectly as a kid with the magical thinking thing.
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