The hardest thing about ocd treatment is to stop doing the compulsions. I have "pure O" and I do alot of mental compulsions and I've been doing them for a long time and I got used to them. I don't even need to do anything or expose myself to anything to trigger my anxiety. The thought can just pop in my head and I start getting anxious. I know I shouldn't be giving them attention or engaging in them but sometimes I feel it's too hard and I just can't resist. Can anyone give me any helpful advice?

"Pure" OCD

Anonymoussssss

Date posted: 4y

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EmilyMelissa

Date posted: 4y

Can you give an example of “pure o” thought? Just now learning about the different types. But have been dealing with ocd since childhood

Miro

Date posted: 4y

Most of my "pure O" thoughts are based around a fear of changing my opinion or in other words something that I don't want to believe is true. Especially about something that I really care about or something that I'm actually obsessed with and I really like. I don't know if I'm making sense though. To answer your question my ocd didn't start in my childhood it started in my adolescence. When I was 15 to be exact. Do you know anyone with ocd who has the same thoughts?

EmilyMelissa

Date posted: 4y

Not sure if that’s the same as me...I feel like i am going to mess things up, something I care about: an interaction with someone, a work thing, my marriage etc. I imagine the worst and make it happen on purpose and use that as a way to be like”see, you didn’t deserve it any other way” I can’t let it go well because that would mean I could be happy. I hate thinking or being this way but I have no choice to punish myself. I have lost all confidence in everything, I doubt all my own thoughts...etc. Does that make any sense?

Miro

Date posted: 4y

Yeah it's basically what I'm experiencing as well. I doubt everything I believe in. Like I want myself to be a certain way or have certain thoughts or opinions and I fear I can't be like that and it causes me alot of distress and anxiety. I don't want to change as a person and I always feel like I'm changing or being things or believing in things I don't want to believe in. It's very hard.

EmilyMelissa

Date posted: 4y

When you say you want yourself to be a certain way...but you can’t and it’s sucks. I totally get that! Wondering, are those thoughts positive? Like you would be happier if you could be a certain way? Then you said you don’t want to change as a person but find your self morphing into those things you think you should? I feel like I am always thinking about how I NEED/WANT to change myself. It’s all so exhausting isn’t it? I always think about how amazing I could be if so much of my brain power / energy/ focus wasn’t about this shit!

Miro

Date posted: 4y

I mean the way I've always been. That's who I always want to be. Basically who I was before ocd. So I can't say the thoughts are positive when they make me feel like I have no control over my life and making me become things I don't want to be or believe in things I don't want to believe in. It's very hard to live with.

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