Hey everyone, today I’m struggling with accepting that I feel like I want to have a same sex fantasy and what that means. I have been doing really well being non judgmental and open with my thoughts. But this particular thought is really scaring me. Does anyone have any mindfulness techniques to move through these feelings and thoughts?

Yeah I love Brian ! He has really helped me a lot

@Ope Thank you girly ! I’m trying. But be compassionate with yourself. Compulsions aren’t good but also we are not perfect and we need to learn that we are managing this not eliminating it forever, so there’s going to be great days and not so good days. But the best thing is that everything passes.

@Ope You too! You’ll beat this !

my mind has been recently telling me that the compulsions and scenarios i imagine with the same sex to check myself are actually just fantasies that i want to have and it's been freaking me out (i am not feeling anxiety towards them anymore)

@Nour04 That’s exactly what I’m feeling. Mindfulness has really been helping me, but that thought scared me a bit too much to remain calm and nonjudgmental. Regardless, treat it the same as all the other triggering thoughts that you experience.

@Legallyocd but even this thought is not that much triggering, it does bother me but i am able to set it aside and focus on my sudies does this mean i have been gay in denial all along if nothing causes me anxiety anymore?

@Nour04 Hey I hate to say this to you because I know it feels terrible BUT at the same time it wouldn’t be good for me to reassure you. The thing is I don’t know you so I can’t tell you if you are or are not. You are the only person that can do that for you. To get through this you have to get through the fear and not around the fear. If you get an answer to this question another one will pop up on it’s place and the cycle starts again. so, I can tell you things that have helped me really well: 1. Watch ocd mindful on YouTube (he is awesome). 2. In the morning make a list of things to do - that way you have something to actually focus on so you don’t ruminate endlessly. 3. If you really need to do a compulsion - time it (do one for 10 min and then move one) or delay it as much as possible ( this is the better option because eventually you’ll forget to even do it !). 4. Maybe maybe not does not work for me but I don’t know works better. 5. Practice letting all your thoughts go through your head and observe them ( I can do this when imagine that it’s a cloud and it’s going from one side of my head to another). 6. Learn to like anxiety ( yeah I know this is weird But when you feel anxious instead of running away, feel it completely and remember this is a good thing because this is an opportunity to win against ocd one step at a time). 7. And finally for me when I don’t feel anxiety,guilt, or shame I get really happy because usually these are the emotions that get me stuck however, if I was to feel them take a deep breath feel them and then decide what you want to do about it. Giving yourself this space brings the volume down.

@Legallyocd thank you so much for all of this for me i have always had anxiety regarding the thoughts but now i don't anymore and it scares me because this way it feels like i actually like and want the thoughts but then i am able to shush my mind and get some work done this might be positive but then again what if it's not hocd and has always been denial it's freaking me out