I remember I once came across a tiktok where it was signs of comphet and it was things like, If you think, “I’d date her if I was a guy”, “I wouldn’t treat her like that”, “She’s cute” “She’s hot” , “I’d date someone like her” and ever since I saw that stupid video my mind automatically thinks those things when I see any girls. It’s like the more I pick up about what it’s actually like to find girls attractive, the more my brain throws it at me. I was watching Teen Mom and her boyfriend called her a bitch so I thought, “I wouldn’t treat her like that” and it’s just crazy and annoying because I can’t tell if it’s real or not anymore.

Tiktok is a huge trigger, this isn’t related to soocd but there’s a gory video going around of a girl so I deleted it because I don’t think I could handle that. But yeah idk I feel like if I have any positive same sex feelings it’s like “damn you’re so gay. Accept it. You like her.” Same here with tiktok tho, it’s way too unfiltered

@PinkLotus And by positive same sex feelings I mean like any kind of positive reactions towards a girl like admiring her, finding her pretty, wanting to be her friend, etc

@PinkLotus Yeah I know, I have a kind of similar thing. But I feel like that's just a normal thing and we can't read into it too much.

@ewaedb Yup, it’s just so hard because this theme makes you feel like your life is at stake

@PinkLotus Yeah I have it too. But I'm sure we'll get through this.

@PinkLotus Omg when wanting to be friends with another girl is apparently comphet has triggered me so badly in the past! Especially if they are then also pretty it makes me so anxious around them which ocd then tells me is like nerves cos i like her ughh its a pain..

Yess exactly!! Any reaction is “proof” and I feel the exact same way about the only doing it since finding out about ocd. I don’t think I had the thoughts before but my brain is like yeah you were just suppressing the whole time. Glad to know I’m not alone in this tho🥲

omgggg that last sentence!! i felt it in my soul exactly what i have been thinking like what if all those compulsions are just me doing them purposely to "pass" as hocd but since i know about them they're not compulsions anymore and i am just in denial and ughhhhh

@Nour04 im so glad im not the only one! We’ll get through it, stay strong ❤️

I relate to this 100%. Its so horrible when you cant tell whats real and not real anymore. I won’t try to reassure you because we know it wont help but you’re definitely not alone in this ❤️

@Winter thank you infinitely for this you have my full support too!!