Can ocd make you think it’s just a urge when it really isn’t? I’m not sure if what I had was just an intrusive thought or an urge but I’m so scared that it was an urge because then I would have to tell my mom

Ok thank you. I’m scared it would be a real urge. My mom told me once to tell her when I had one I’m scared she will kick me out of the house or something if I told her

I can’t tell if it was an urge or not I know it was an intrusive thought and I was definitely disgusted and scared. It’s kind of blurry if that makes sense. I don’t know if it was anything else but it felt weird

@G>/\\/🙏🏻❤️ That makes sense. Being disgusted is a good sign, as wierd as that sounds

No, this is false. People often gague whether or not their ocd is ocd based on a factor of disgust which in its self is a compulsion and OCD can/will make it feel as real as it can, meaning you wont always experience disgust with your "urges".

@Anonymous So I don’t know what to do now. I guess I will talk to my therapist because now I’m just really confused

@Anonymous I was just speaking from my personal experience. But I definitely know there are people who have way worse symptoms than I do, so I’m sure they experience things differently like you explained

@G>/\\/🙏🏻❤️ Im just saying, assuming an "urge" is real because you dont experience disgust is not actually valid. Chrissie hodges does a video about it. Its on YouTube i think.

@G>/\\/🙏🏻❤️ Or it might be robert bray who does the video.. Ugh now i cant remember. The point is that if you dont feel disgust it doesnt mean youre a pedo. These urges are made to feel very real. If they werent then you wouldn't be analyzing it.

@222 Yea i mean worse or better, whatever. Some peoples OCD is very convincing and I'd be careful not to use disgust as a check in point because eventually it will backfire. Just advice from a person who had that occur.

@Anonymous OK that makes sense. Thank you for that advice I really appreciate it!

@Anonymous So it’s not real? I dont need to tell my mom?

@G>/\\/🙏🏻❤️ That would be for you to decide. Do you feel like you need to talk to your mom about it? Or would you rather not?

@222 I’m afraid to

@222 She doesn’t believe I have ocd

@G>/\\/🙏🏻❤️ I would definetly talk to someone who can understand your concerns and needs and who has the capability to support you in the ways you need to be supported

@222 I talked to my therapist about it but it didn’t help. I feel so guilty

@G>/\\/🙏🏻❤️ Hey. How old are you? Im so sorry your mom doesn't believe you have OCD. I can't imagine dealing with that. So if she doesn't believe you have OCD does she just think you're making all of this up? Or does she think you're the thing you're afraid of? I know this is kind of a wild suggestion, but have you considered having her be part of one of your therapy sessions? So maybe your therapist can explain to her what it is you're dealing with?

@Anonymous I’m 22 but I live with my mom. She doesn’t believe it’s ocd. I think she thinks I’m what I’m afraid of being. I tried to explain it was ocd she thinks it’s just cleaning and checking. That she’s worked with people who have ocd and I don’t have it. Even after I got diagnosed she still wouldn’t believe me. She said a doctor has to diagnose me not a therapist a therapist can’t diagnose me. So I don’t know what to do I’m so scared that if I told her I had a false urge she will kick me out or never let me near my family again

@G>/\\/🙏🏻❤️ Well, at the risk of being insensitive i can tell you with confidence that your mom clearly does not know what she's talking about. I know its hard to accept that right now, but when you are through this you'll realize it. It sounds like your mom almost wants to believe the worst case scenario. I cant imagine living there and having someone who should provide you with support make you feel so much worse. My advice is not to tell her. Not because you're hiding anything but because she is not educated about this at all and is going to cause more trauma and you need to take care of yourself first.

@Anonymous You’re right. I feel like I’m keeping things from her but I feel so ashamed and guilty.

@Anonymous My next appointment isn’t for another 2 weeks I don’t know if I can make it until then to let this go. I really want to. I don’t even know if it was an urge or not. How do you even know for sure?

@G>/\\/🙏🏻❤️ The whole point of ERP is to learn that we can't know anything for sure. As you accept the uncertainty and sit with the anxiety you'll begin to gain perspective around what this really is (a fear). That doesn't happen at first though. You have to get more uncomfortable before you gain peace. One day you'll look back on this and see it for what it is and be almost certain you're not a pedo. And that will be good enough for you because literally nothing in this world is certain. As for not seeing your therapist for 2 weeks, thats ridiculous and part of why i quit the program and went back to my old therapist.

@Anonymous It’s because I’m going on vacation is why otherwise yeah I could totally understand. My therapist said she would talk with my mom I’m hoping until then I can just get passed it and realize I would never in my entire life ever hurt anyone especially who the intrusive thought urge whatever was about. I’m heartbroken this is even happening

@G>/\\/🙏🏻❤️ The fact that you're heartbroken kind of proves this is OCD. I feel heartbroken it happens too. I totally understand. Maybe use this vacation as a marker of when your healing starts.

@Anonymous Thank you for your help I truly appreciate it. I just watched Chrissie Hudges explain it and I feel a little better knowing it’s ocd and now an actual urge if you know what I mean. Hoping vacation will go well too