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Calm down, you are not crazy. You can have thoughts about exactly everything. Everybody can get these thoughts, it’s just that we ocd persons believe them like they were real. Thoughts are thoughts. You say that you saw something in a movie that triggered these thoughts. To make it easier to have a distance to your thoughts, look at them like you’re watching them on your TV. You aint your thoughts, you just have them.
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Thoughts produce feelings and impulses, OCD does the same, not in a way that would make you act on them. It’s just false reactions. I know it’s super scary, I’ve been there. The anxiety could also make you feel that you’re about to loose your mind, it’s just fear that confuses you a lot. You mentioned that you have to control them, try to just let them be instead, nothing will happen. Something that was crucial for me was to talk and share these things with others! You get other perspectives and you’ll probably hear from others that they’ve experienced similar. I know it’s hard to take that step just because you think people will think of you as a dangerous person. Start to talk to someone you really trust, a therapist, regular doctor etc. Harm thoughts are so common. Take a moment now and rest your brain, the right help exists for you.
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Thank you! This was very helpful! I did email a therapist to book my first therapy sessions. It will start either today and tomorrow, so that’s a start.
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I feel that aswell when watching things I’m not sure what to do other than just breathe and think I love my mother I wouldn’t want to harm her even if everything in your head tells you you want to
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thank you
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thank you
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I am glad to know I’m not alone. I watch videos on YouTube and it scares me but it gives me impulses that I have to control about harming loved ones. I feel like I am going insane, but I can’t tell this to anyone in my life because they will think of me as a dangerous person, and I’m not. I get so anxious from this I can hardly stand it.
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We are strong. I remind myself of that every day. I am also in therapy, I actually have an appointment today. Seeing a therapist gives me a lot of hope, and I hope it will do the same for you because eventually we will learn to recognize, accept, and manipulate these thoughts.
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Exactly! I wish you all the luck!
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Woho! That’s a big step in the right direction! ?? A tip is to be as honest as possible with your therapist, even though you feel a shame for this, it will help you faster. But don’t stress yourself, you have already been brave to take this first step.
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- 24w
My POCD has spiraled out of control based on me thinking I wanted to cause harm to my child when I moved my elbow based upon the thought to move it. I can't stop feeling guilty about it. I don't want to be taken from her. I need help. I have a therapist but myself next session isn't for a while
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- 24w
TW- POCD people only please. Am I a criminal hiding behind a diagnosis? I woke up in the middle of the night breathing and I was having groinals because she laying across me. My mind told me I had already hurt her so might as well do something else. I then was like well I have nothing to lose and I had to think of what to do. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards her groin area to cause a feeling. Well I did that and my elbow touched her groin and caused an unwanted feeling. I then immediately asked my child to move. After that, I went back to sleep but I believe in a state of shock as to what happened. I woke up panicking completely thinking I have done ruined my life. I was going to prison and would lose my child. Since then, I haven't stopped ruminating. I have had days where I feel okay, but then there are days where I can't stop crying. Thinking I don't deserve my child, and I deserve to be in the ground. I was on a new medication that was causing me to spiral and giving me insomnia during this time. I wasn't getting much sleep at all. Since then, I've slept on the floor, and I eventually got my child to sleep in their own bed to avoid this happening again. I got off the medication and feel so much better with my thoughts and sleeping so much better. My daughter tells me how wonderful I am often, but I don't feel that I even deserve to celebrate Mother's Day this year. I'm not a good mom. I was four months ago before I spiraled. What's wrong with me? (edited)
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- 23w
i am convinced im a psycho killer. everytime im around my mom or sister i get these intense thoughts of stabbing or hurting them. when they’re not around its not as intense but its still there. its literally on my mind 24/7. im so tense 24/7. were currently looking for a puppy for the family and when me and my sister were playing with them today the thought was still there. nothing distracts me from it. video games and EVERYTHING else doesn’t work. im starting to feel like i WANT to do these things. i was never like this until i had a marijuana induced panic attack in january. i feel like something happened to my brain and its not just ocd anymore. i dont even know if im faking it. i have suffered from relationship ocd, pedophile ocd, and health ocd. i got over those relatively quickly. this new theme came out of nowhere after a panic attack on a plane coming home from a horror convention in february. i dont see a way out of this one. its been months. i try to let them sit and i get a panic attack. all i do everyday is cry. i feel like my life is over. i talk to a therapist and i have tried two medications that didnf work work. i dont know how to live like this. im afraid im gonna lose my relationship and im afraid im gonna lose my whole life ahead of me. im just 22. i just want the old me back.
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