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- 6y ago
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- 6y ago
Calm down, you are not crazy. You can have thoughts about exactly everything. Everybody can get these thoughts, it’s just that we ocd persons believe them like they were real. Thoughts are thoughts. You say that you saw something in a movie that triggered these thoughts. To make it easier to have a distance to your thoughts, look at them like you’re watching them on your TV. You aint your thoughts, you just have them.
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- 6y ago
Thoughts produce feelings and impulses, OCD does the same, not in a way that would make you act on them. It’s just false reactions. I know it’s super scary, I’ve been there. The anxiety could also make you feel that you’re about to loose your mind, it’s just fear that confuses you a lot. You mentioned that you have to control them, try to just let them be instead, nothing will happen. Something that was crucial for me was to talk and share these things with others! You get other perspectives and you’ll probably hear from others that they’ve experienced similar. I know it’s hard to take that step just because you think people will think of you as a dangerous person. Start to talk to someone you really trust, a therapist, regular doctor etc. Harm thoughts are so common. Take a moment now and rest your brain, the right help exists for you.
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- 6y ago
Thank you! This was very helpful! I did email a therapist to book my first therapy sessions. It will start either today and tomorrow, so that’s a start.
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- 6y ago
I feel that aswell when watching things I’m not sure what to do other than just breathe and think I love my mother I wouldn’t want to harm her even if everything in your head tells you you want to
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- 6y ago
thank you
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- 6y ago
thank you
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- 6y ago
I am glad to know I’m not alone. I watch videos on YouTube and it scares me but it gives me impulses that I have to control about harming loved ones. I feel like I am going insane, but I can’t tell this to anyone in my life because they will think of me as a dangerous person, and I’m not. I get so anxious from this I can hardly stand it.
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- 6y ago
We are strong. I remind myself of that every day. I am also in therapy, I actually have an appointment today. Seeing a therapist gives me a lot of hope, and I hope it will do the same for you because eventually we will learn to recognize, accept, and manipulate these thoughts.
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- 6y ago
Exactly! I wish you all the luck!
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- 6y ago
Woho! That’s a big step in the right direction! ?? A tip is to be as honest as possible with your therapist, even though you feel a shame for this, it will help you faster. But don’t stress yourself, you have already been brave to take this first step.
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- 25w ago
I’m so tired of my OCD changing “themes.” And no matter what it changes to, it’s always directed towards a specific person - my mom. My mom and I are very close. I consider her my best friend and we live together. I can share anything with her and she’s very supportive. I’m 32 now, but harm ocd started when I was 15 and she was the main target back then as well. I had a bad flare up this year and the harm thoughts came back, but about a week ago they turned into sexual thoughts. Graphic thoughts and images about incest. These thoughts typically make me feel panic and dread, and just an overall depressed feeling. It has made me uncomfortable to be around my mom, since I can’t even look at her without a sexual thought or image popping up. Even watching a romantic scene in a show, listening a romantic song, etc. My brain wants to put an image of her in my head. Even me fantasizing about a man that I’m attracted to will replace the man with my mom. They just keep popping up. So this of course makes me think I actually want these things, and are actually fantasies. I have started to wonder if I’m in actual denial or that these are my true feelings. I have never been a relationship before due to not having much interest in it plus my mental health issues started as a teen, but someday I would like to get married. But now I’m thinking maybe I’ve never pursued a relationship with someone else because I’m actually in love with my mom and want to be with her, but I can’t so I’m just suppressing my feelings. And I do love my mom, but I question myself is this just platonic or familial love? Also questioning our relationship in general now - is it unhealthy or too dependent? It makes me feel doubt, since I have never really been in love before with someone else so I have nothing to compare it to. Always just crushes or finding a man attractive, and I identify as straight. But I also have not thought of my mom in a sexual way before, so I’m hoping this is just my OCD acting up. Even thinking about a future relationship with a man is making me feel nervous, since I think if I have feelings for my mom, will I ever be able to be in a serious relationship someday? If I’m with someone will I actually just picture her? It makes me feel hopeless, like I can’t help how I feel and what if these things are true? Would I act on them? My brain even made me think, “you want to ask your mom to be in a sexual relationship with you and/or want her to ask you.” I feel like such a pervert for writing that, like a truly disgusting person. I know I don’t want these things to be true, but what if they are and I can’t help how I feel? Again just feel doubt and uncertainty, that I’m in denial, and not to mention just feeling like a very sick individual.
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- 22w ago
This may upset some people reading so here is just a warning that these are disturbing I don’t know what to do to make the bad thoughts stop. My mom recently had a baby, my little brother. I wasn’t exactly happy about this pregnancy, but I have nothing against my brother. He’s adorable and silly. Nothing against him. But I feel like these thoughts bug me because what if deep down I do resent him because I didn’t want my mom to have another kid? What if I did act on these things because I hate him? What if I just lose it and do something? It’s all so illogical, I know. Never would I ever want to do that. But there’s times I’m watching him for a few minutes for my mom and my brain just shows me an awful scene of me brutally hurting him or killing him. Or I’ll be holding him and my brain shows me a scene where I purposefully drop him or I just hurt him so badly. I’ll be walking near him and my brain tells me I’m going to stomp on him. It shows me such bad things. I have intrusive thoughts all the time, but this is different because there’s a semi good reason I “could” do it. That being, I wasn’t happy about the pregnancy. And it scares me. I’ve started crying because I was so scared it was going to happen. I have to back up away from him or sit down so there’s no way I can do anything. I feel horrible. I don’t want to hurt him. And I’m so scared I will. But I won’t. I’m hoping this makes sense to others who struggle with this. Because to anyone else who’s never gone through these things I’ll sound insane. And sound like a psychopath. Thanks for reading. Any help would be appreciated.
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- 18w ago
I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
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