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- Liv
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’ve has this too.
I had it too, eventually I stopped caring (idk if it’s because of the medicine I’m taking). I should clarify that it’s not that I don’t care, but I slowly realized that is the ocd speaking, and everyone has these thoughts but it doesn’t mean they are true, it’s all just mental noise. But for sure the medicine has been a huge help.
It may in part, but my ocd changes what i like to call “it’s” attention and tries to get me to worry about something else, it started with me going to hell, than my family going to hell, and eventually I completely lost any interest in it so my ocd moved on. Remember that you knows it’s ocd when it starts to attach what you love, which usually means your the opposite of your fears. (If that made any sense).
This hit me really hard last summer. At the time I knew I had OCD, but I didn’t connect the two. It has by far been the worst thing I’ve ever dealt with during my OCD, perhaps in my whole life. I still deal with this, but on a much smaller scale. I tend to believe that if I was beyond Christ’s redemption that my heart would be hardened against Him and I wouldn’t be worried about my salvation.
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@alexN the exact same thing happened to me too. Idk if it’s the meds but I just slowly stopped caring
TW Are you talking about fear of committing the unpardonable sin?
@alex it makes complete sense. I had a very similar experience. I think what helped the most for me was the meds and moving on to college and getting out of my home environment
@catlady it hit me hard over the summer too, especially with traveling. I remember the first tome it happened I was a scared 15yr old sobbing in my room thinking I had committed the worst sin imaginable and that the “metaphorical spiritual safety net” under me was broken and that I was helpless. It’s a terrifying feeling. With time these obsessions do pass. It’s taken me 3+ years but I’m getting on the right track and I know you will too :)
The guilt from my OCD is insane, sometimes I truly feel like I’m the worst person and I deserve death
Does ocd ever really make you believe that deep deep down it’s all true and real? I hate that damn feeling. You just can’t trust your thinking.
I hate intrusive feelings so much. Like I'll be obsessing over something and then I "feel" something that could be proof the obsession is true... it feels so real and i feel like a horrible person. I hate ocd so so so much
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