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Hey there, I completely empathise with you here because I’ve been there. Without providing too much reassurance, I want you to know that this is pretty universal for people with HOCD. And as you say, the fact that you’re in your head is really the cause of the issue. Sex is very triggering because it’s the perfect ‘testing’ opportunity. OCD is a self-fulfilling prophecy, the more I think, ‘what if I don’t like this?’, ‘what if I would prefer this with a girl?’. The question becomes so powerful that it starts to actualise itself and you feel like it’s coming true. Anxiety is the BIGGEST libido killer too. I’m sorry you had to go through that, I’m sure it was really, really unpleasant. Try and not let it consume your day, focus on things you need to get done. This is most definitely OCD, and that means in engaging is just going to perpetuate how you feel! Sending love ❤️
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You can’t shut off your mind but when you stop feeding the thoughts like you’re doing they more than likely will go away
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I really appreciate your kind words! Conquering the day became easier with this encouragement. I really do appreciate it!
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Thank you so much for posting this. This literally happened to me yesterday. I was in my head and everything I did with my boyfriend felt like I test. I kept thinking would this be better if it was a girl. It drove me crazy. And today I’m really trying to stick with the uncertainty that maybe, maybe not. But I keep falling into compulsions. Especially when as I’m sure you feel, our taboo thoughts feel 89 times more intense then regular thoughts. Regardless, it’s so encouraging to not be the only person dealing with this and we will get through this.
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I’m definitely here if you want to talk! Those days suck so bad, but we got this! Just try to sit with the anxiety and let it come and go.
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- 25w
Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
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- 22w
I’m like 90% sure I’m just bi, more romantically inclined to men, mainly my bf who I wanna marry. But now my brain is like “if you lean into liking women or keep circling and circling for answers you’ll lose all attraction to men and your bf. You’re practically already a lesbian” I feel so tense and anxious I will admit I am talking to chat gpt out of desperation I’m scared of losing all attraction to him I don’t wanna be thinking about women. I don’t unless I’m really stressed cuz when I’m stressed my ocd can take advantage of that I can usually ground myself when I’m in the city with him but I’m back home for most of the summer and I can’t be physically close to him which usually reminds me that hey this is real this is what I really want in life. Him But then I panic and question I haven’t been here in a while tbh. I’m worried I don’t feel enough. I don’t like magic Mike all that much, I like softer guys. But now the fact I don’t like/get turned on by random men on tv but do women in lingerie really stresses me out and makes me worry I’m truly a lesbian but I’m not. Once I started getting to know my bf and my ex bf’s I really did truly genuinely like them and wanted to make out and everything. Idk can anyone relate to the not liking big buff men All my brain is repeating rn is “when he dies you’ll be able to date a woman, when you break up you’ll only wanna date women” and it’s stressing me out. It’s making me nauseous. I was doing well for about a couple days after I initially left but being at home has been so incredibly draining This might give you a vision of how stressful home is: I’ve been on nexplanon for 7 months ish? Only had very minimal spotting during a stressful school period. Today: fully bleeding, like a usual period. I haven’t had my period since having it put in. I wanna go back to my bf so badly rn. I’m so worried I’m faking or don’t feel enough. I’m learning what a healthy relationship looks like and I’m terrified I’m gonna up and leave him when we’re older cuz I’ll finally figure out that I’m a lesbian or smthn. Idk. Someone pls just help me out a tad
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- 19w
I. Was so afraid to have sex with my husband. This is making me so afraid that im gay. I feel sexual attraction to men. I don’t know what’s going on. Has this happened to anyone?
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