Possible trigger warning im not sure I hate this so much, i feel exactly like a lesbian and i just wanna cry and sleep and the thought of being happy w/ a girl or being happy being a lesbian makes me so sad cause its not what i want But i feel like im attracted to girls now, see why guys like them and would like being w/ them even though i dont want to And THEN that im not attracted to boys anymore, not understanding what’s attractive about them (or not be able to be attracted to them) and wouldn’t like it even though i do want that, so badly:( but now even saying that feels like a lie and like i cant have it I hate this how did this completely alter my sexuality I don’t do anything but talk about this, cry, and sleep now im barely living Is this what figuring out your sexuality is like? Like GOD, i wish i wanted women and didnt have all these fucking conflicting feelings, but everytime i say i want women i get sad and depressed and feel lost and then terrified i actually want them and DONT WANT THEM then when i say i want a man, i get feelings of disgust / repulsion / idefk and i HATE IT and wanna cry even more and that makes me more sad / triggers me more than the thoughts of girls now like OMG Bruh is this what figuring out sexuality is like or is this ocd cause imma bout to leap off a bridge (not literally nocd, for the most part) Like my goodness any sexuality / gender / anything would be easier than this shiz