Is any there to talk about hocd I’m going crazy. Please help me.

Im almost in exactly the same place. But youve recognised that youre having an episode and youve got through them before and you will do again i promise. I know how scary it is and the fear of “realising” at somepoint is so intense but thats exactly what keeps us in the ocd loop. You will get through it, i promise

@Winter I know its easier said than done but try not to check if you can, chances are itll make you feel worse. Is there any way you can distract yourself, i dont mind chatting for a bit, it doesnt have to be ocd related! ❤️

@Winter Im just so scared winter, I really have never not been scared of being gay and I have memories of feeling maybe that’s what I am because I either didn’t feel girly or too manly or that other girls were pretty. I was always insecure about if I felt enough attraction and I seem to automatically assume that I would feel more of it was a girl. What is crazy is that I don’t want one. It turns me off. But I guess I’m scared more of never knowing you know.

@Winter I wish I think of something else. Im distracting myself with school work atm but honestly you guys are keeping me from crying. I also made it worse because I did an exposure that had to do with fluidity and that got me all kinds of sad. It’s crazy to me how so many straight girls can experience the enjoy it and then go back to being with men without even a doubt. Like why can’t that be me?

Not really. I’m stuck in a loop. I FEEL like I never really like men and that my attraction for them was woman. Im really sad.

@Legallyocd Im in a similar place and questioning everything atm. It sucks.. it will get better though, for all of us. Ocd is just attacking the things that mean the most to us. I know its hard but try not to push back against the thoughts and just let them sit, eventually the feeling will die down but i know how hard it is to do that and im definitely not very good at following my own advice here. Did anything specific trigger you or just a rough day? Youre not alone, stay strong :)

@Winter Honestly it was a picture of my period and also I was intimate with my boyfriend and I wasn’t like instantly turned on when he was doing things to me. So it made a question why that happened.

@Legallyocd Like why didn’t I feel incredible and over the moon you know ?

@Legallyocd Probably cos youre in a really tough place mentally and that’s exhausting and stressful but ocd wont listen to logic. Try not to beat yourself up about it, youre attraction will come back once you start doing erp and reduce your compulsions. But it sucks atm and no one deserves to go through this

I’m a male with HOCD and I DO THE SAME THING!!!!! I’ve been going through it today

@NoRuminations What do you do ?

Thank you girl. But it’s really getting difficult. Like I could feel arousal when I thought about touching a girl and thats super scary.

@Legallyocd It's okay I've been there before too, but remember that after becoming hyper aware of something for so long its extremely easy to be aroused by it even if you dont want to be

@PinkLotus You’re right. Ugh like what did we do to get this you know ?! I try really really hard to be a good person and to do things right and be positive and it bothers me so much to have to deal with this. I want to enjoy my relationship free of doubt. And I am so tired of feeling great and then you see a girl irl and you think omg Im going to kiss her or you feel the urge to lunge yourself at her so you can know already.

@Legallyocd Yess, I want to be happy in my relationship so bad and focus on real issues, not a hypothetical woman!!!! I hate all of this, I really dont want to be with a girl but of course that feels like a lie

@PinkLotus Exactly and saying that I want to be with a man feels right but the. My ocd is like look at all this proof that says that you don’t really like men. Look at all those times you had a thought of doubt. Or thought a woman was attractive or even worse look at all the times you felt anxiety around a woman. You felt that because you like them.

@Legallyocd Yes exactly! It's the worst