Please tell me I’m not alone in this. I read an article today because I’m trying to do more exposures. It was very violent and it instantly triggered violent thoughts towards my mom which is something I’ve been dealing on and off with for the last couple of days. I kept telling myself it was just a thought and that I was triggered by the article. I ended up going out with my mom and it just progressively got worse because I kept reassuring myself that I wouldn’t hurt her but then I got the worse possible thought possible and it was what if I have to hurt her to make the thoughts stop and that just TERRIFIED me. I don’t want to hurt my mom and I know that won’t stop the thoughts. But now I’m scared that I’m going to somehow convince myself that that’s what I have to do

Harm OCD

Mikeb63

Date posted: 4y

Don’t worry we all have that. I’ve had those with my whole family and my wife. And even about myself same thing if you do it it’ll do away. Your not supposed to seek reassurance that you won’t do it but it seems like today was tough and since I’m prob older then you just turned 40 and have been through this multiple times. I want to tell you “You will never do those things” the reason they’re bother you so much and all of us also is because those are the things we care the most about. if you were to do soemthing like that it wouldn’t bother you and cause extreme anxiety. Trust me you will never do it and soon after ERP when you get better you will think back like wow that’s such a dumb thought. That’s just a trigger thought. OCD likes to attack anything we love. it took me a long time to open up to my mom about thoughts of hurting her and years before I told my wife. They will probably tell you they’ve had the same thought about us lol. But it doesn’t bother them cause they don’t have ocd. Dont worry promise do the ERP and you will get better. :) all the best mike

hedana

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

You’ve had success with ERP then? I start my sessions on Tuesday! I’m excited to get started and hope it really helps!

Mikeb63

Date posted: 4y

@hedana Yes it helps tremendously.

Mikeb63

Date posted: 4y

@hedana Make sure you do the homework whatever they teach you need to practice and force yourself to do it.

hedana

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

@Mikeb63 That’s good to hear. I go back to work about 4 weeks into my therapy so I hope I have made some improvements by then

hedana

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

@Mikeb63 I know I will!!! I hear it’s really tough and hard but I want to recover

Mikeb63

Date posted: 4y

@hedana You definetly will. As long you practice. And also meditation or yoga exercise seems to help a lot. Congratulations!! Stay positive :)

Amr

Date posted: 4y

U made feel better man thank u and I hope all of us feel better soon

hedana

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

@Amr Same to you!!

Amr

Date posted: 4y

@hedana We got this 💪🏽

Amr

Date posted: 4y

I’m going through the same trust me u won’t do it it’s just a thought because we r a good people we can’t hurt no one I’m in the same situation and I feel u 100% u gonna be ok

hedana

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

But have you actually said in your head if it would make the thoughts stop?? That’s what’s scaring me. I don’t want to hurt anyone but I don’t want to believe that either you know

Amr

Date posted: 4y

@hedana I had all kinda thoughts but it’s just a thought and I kno it’s annoying and it’s not gonna happen trust me because we r a good people we don’t hurt we worried about others it’s ok trust me I swear I’m in the same thing just take a deep breath and just go on with ur life nothing gonna happen :)

hedana

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

@Amr Thank you. I have these thoughts all the time and I can relax and stuff but because I said that in my head it’s been lingering a lot longer. But yeah I know I rather deal with these thoughts for the rest of my life than hurt anyone or myself. That’s why it’s scary

Amr

Date posted: 4y

@hedana We will be fine God is there for us and I hope feel well soon ❤️

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