- Date posted
- 4y
- Date posted
- 4y
wanna talk about it?
- Date posted
- 4y
I do, thank you. :) my brain is just hardwired to throw all these thoughts at me and it really sucks. None of it makes me happy or feel good but I can’t let it go
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus yes i have those thoughts too , and i know they suck but just know u live ur life the way u want to not the way ur brain thinks u should 🥰
- Date posted
- 4y
@usjsjdjdjd Thank you I truly appreciate it! How are you doing?
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus i'm okay the ocd went away for a while but now it's back and even stronger sadly
- Date posted
- 4y
@usjsjdjdjd Oh no I’m sorry to hear that :( what theme? If that’s not too personal
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus the same one as u (: the sexual orientation ocd
- Date posted
- 4y
@usjsjdjdjd It’s so draining, it sucks but hey you’re not alone :$
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus :)*
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus yeah ik but it's so hard
- Date posted
- 4y
@usjsjdjdjd It really is
- Date posted
- 4y
gosh me too :(
- Date posted
- 4y
I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling :(
- Date posted
- 4y
heyy what's wrong?
- Date posted
- 4y
Just feel like there’s too much “evidence” ya know?
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus yeah i too am struggling with this right now. too much proof and i am convinced i am in denial. i can't really be any good at the advice, but all i can offer is my support. and if you want to rant i am here
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 Likewise :) I know you’ve been struggling a lot lately but you’re not alone
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus i just feel so numb too it's all so disgusting how are you doing today?
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 About the same, I fell into a rabbit hole. I’m exhausted
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus want to talk about it?
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 Yes, thank you. :) I’m just scared that when I see my long distance partner again I’ll never truly be able to enjoy it the way I want. How are you doing?
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus long distance is difficult, especially if your love language is physical touch and cuddling and stuff. and this is ocd trying to ruin for you something that you're excited for and cherish a lot, which is the return of your partner. i am not great at the advice but i could suggest you make plans for his return and try to enjoy them as much as you can. it may all seem a lie, but if you didn't care that much this wouldn't worry you in the first place. and about me tbh i don't know anymore, i just don't know
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 It’s been 8 months since he joined the military and I miss him so much, it’s just this constant thing I carry around. Our love language definitely was a lot of touching so it’s difficult but my ocd also tries to ruin it because I’m not a very affectionate person at all so there were times that I felt awkward and unsure which is “proof” that I’m just forcing it. He comes back in September! I’m super excited but I’m also super anxious and afraid that I’ll realize it’s not as special as I thought it was. I hate how ocd tries to take everything from you. But I understand that feeling, I’m the same I genuinely just don’t know who I am anymore.
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus I am sorry to intrude but did you start dating before this theme of yours?
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 It’s alright you’re not intruding and yes I did :) but I got rocd 3 months into the relationship
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus not to reassure you, but just try trusting your old self, back when all of this wasn't happening and back when you felt like yourself and weren't in this tormented state of not sering stuff clearly because of ocd.
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 Thank you for that :) I truly do try it’s just difficult sometimes because even before this theme my ocd made me question a lot but I know deep down that I truly want to be with him and have a strong physical and emotional bond. 🥲
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus i can clearly see that. if it weren't the case, both of you would have given up on this relationship because ocd makes it so hard, but you keep on fighting for it.
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 Thank you truly ❤️❤️❤️
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
Oh I completely feel like I’m in denial again so yes I am exhausted this has been wearing on me for too long
- Date posted
- 4y
Yup I feel the same it’s like I know I’m in denial
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
@PinkLotus I feel like I have to come out and just get it over with and it feels awful, I’m so depressed
- Date posted
- 4y
@NOCD4me@123 You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to, you are always in control not your thoughts
- Date posted
- 4y
You are not alone ladies. It does get better and it can still be bad at times, and it's exhausting. But we will survive...
- Date posted
- 4y
Thank you and youre so right, one way or another we will survive :)
Related posts
- Date posted
- 25w
I feel very mentally drained and exhausted
- Date posted
- 18w
I’m struggling so much, I don’t know what’s changed. I was doing so well for a solid two months and now it’s been over a month of just my lowest point. My bf has gotten upset at how much I do compulsions and it’s taxing him too. I can’t imagine how hard it is to be my partner right now. I feel exhausted I’m tired of my OCD finding new things to obsess or worry over. I’m so TIRED of getting stuck on technicalities. I’m so exhausted with the constant intrusive thoughts and intrusive thinking. I’m so sick of how compulsive I get when I’m so riddled with anxiety. I don’t want to keep pushing. It feels pointless if my life is going to be a constant loop of ups and extreme lows. I feel like such a disgusting, embarrassing person. I don’t want love because I don’t feel like I deserve it. I don’t want patience or understanding because it makes me feel so guilty. Like no one is understanding how bad of person I could truly be. I’m so lost and tired of this
- Date posted
- 16w
So over all of this. Why do periods have to make everything so much worse. I keep thinking that I can get over an intrusive thought and then the next one comes in. My brain tries to make be obsess over something that i've already obsessed about and moved on from. Wish this could be over.
Be a part of the largest OCD Community
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond