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I have this strong yearning to tell my mother all my thoughts and what I go through on a daily basis but then I get scared of what she'll think of me or that she'll worry even more and feel like it's her fault. I just want someone to understand what im going through but whenever I even begin to explain my thoughts to my therapist, she doesn't really get it and today it feels like no one ever will. like I try to make my therapist understand and bless her heart, she's super compassionate and understands how much pain it causes me but beyond that, it still feels like im not able to fully convey it. I'm sure this is something many people can relate to, but still. I feel alone.

I don't know what to do .I don't know if my therapist knows about intrusive thoughts..I want to tell them and see what she says.I told her some of my worries..but not all.At this point it feels like I am in denial.I had a staring compulsion and made a parent upset and I want to apologise but Idk how And I pray I didn't upset the kid.And I think about a terrible thing when I fantasize..like the thoughts appear and I am so so scared.I hate them.

I told my mom about my POCD and I feel she didn't get it and now assumes I'm a secret pedophile + recommended me to go to church and ask God to take away these thoughts from my mind. I think I might get therapy anyways, but oh my god, this is a new low for me. I tried so hard to tell her I'm not these things, I'm not my thoughts, I'm not my anxiety, but I feel as if it fell on deaf ears. I should have just kept quiet or said something else was my trigger.