my mom is so upset with me because i don't want to share my intrusive thoughts. I had talked a little to her but she deduced that the thoughts were about wanting to kill someone or kill me. but it is far beyond that. and she is very sad that i don't want to share, HOW am i going to share if my intrusive thoughts involve rape? and she asked if it was about sexual orientation (she's homophobic) i laughed because it wasn't. in a few minutes this will get worse for me. I don't want to talk to her, I want to talk to some therapist.

I need a weird bit of advice. I think i’m ocd but my mom is extremely opposed to therapy (for Ocd, anxiety, or depression) after i went to a couple sessions last year. She’s trying her best to help me with some of the compulsions, but i’ve been scared to tell her about the intrusive thoughts (harm ocd and when i was younger a lot of religious). What should i do? she’s convinced that maybe i’m having some anxiety problems bc my sisters severely autistic but it’s more than that.

My mom walked in and saw me ruminating and she said what are you doing I said I just have unwanted thoughts and she said everyone have unwanted thoughts and i said I know but when you can’t make it go it becomes exhausting she walks out and say just get rid of them you are wasting your time and your future.that really hit hard as I can’t get rid of them and the way she said make it like I want the thoughts,she loves me so much and so do I.sometimes I get headaches because how much I thought and like my head vibrate.sorry I’m writing here but i needed to say that to someone.as I don’t have anyone to speak with.what a pathetic person I’m.

Hi all. I opened up to my psychiatrist today (my therapist and ocd therapist know) about the intrusive thoughts I've been having. The one thought would pop up over and over "child porn" and it made me so sick to my stomach because I can't believe I would think of such a thing. Then the thoughts were more dark like thinking of touching my son and even images of that happening..then came urges...and i felt so guilty and disgusted with myself :( after I told my psychiatrist ( who is currently treating me for bipolar 1) he was so concerned and told me I need to stay with my mom to make sure my son is safe. To not trust myself and have someone watch me. Well that made me feel a whole lot worse! The thoughts were actually subsiding this week and talking about it with him made the "child porn" thought pop up again. I just feel like I'm failing at life and as a mother. My immediate family think I should turn myself into a mental health facility and have intensive treatment. They think because I have those thoughts that I want to act on them or to let it go. I don't want to act on them and would never! Im scared of my thoughts and thats the problem. This is so frustrating.