hate_ocd.123
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AnonymousAnonymous
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it definitely sounds like ocd, but i’m not a lisenced professional, so if you are feeling this bad, seek help
AnonymousAnonymous
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i am also feeling really depressed lately, especially because i am in a relationship and it got worse while i’m in it. ocd makes you feel like you’re lying to yourself and it makes you cry and depressed. you can make it through this
ChocolateChocolate
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Having similar feelings and I hate this. Im trying to not do compulsions and sit with the anxiety. The thoughts have subsided but the anxiety is lingering and I feel so shaky and scared. Its so confusing because now I have no idea how to get rid of the anxiety and calm down.
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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Me too girl i tried to make myself like the thoughts and i get a lump in my throat and last night i almost puked from anxiety im so sad
ChocolateChocolate
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@hate_ocd.123 Yeah I felt like my brain had accepted that I was a lesbian and that I was going to break up with my boyfriend and I almost passed out I was so shaky. I feel like I'm drowning and desperately trying to survive. I saw where you mentioned you have been dealing with this for six years. It's been about two years where it's this intense for me. It went away for about six months and then came back. No idea why or how I even got rid of it. I just miss my life
AnonymousAnonymous
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are you okay with liking the thoughts or do they make you uncomfortable?
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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Idek at this point:( I dont wanna like the thoughts but feel like i do and am comfortable w/ it and i hate it Cause i dont wanna be :(
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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But ive also had this for six years so when it gets too much i sometimes just shut off My ocd is just saying “if you accept it and stop fighting it you’ll finally be fine with being gay” And im like “but i dont wanna be gayor end up with a girl. I wanna eventually be with a guy. I dont want this.”
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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So idk i cant answer that question anymore :(
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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Do you ever feel like this too??
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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Please respond im really scared :(
AnonymousAnonymous
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@hate_ocd.123 my ocd has been focusing more on me being a man when i am a woman. but when i first was struggling with soocd, i thought i liked thinking about women, and i found that if you feel disturbed by the thought and know that it’s absolutely something that makes you uncomfortable, then it isn’t something you want.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@anxious whenever i feel like i wasn’t supposed to be a woman, i feel sad and disturbed. ocd warps how you feel so you can never really trust your thoughts and even how you’re feeling. i found that by accepting the uncertainty brings you comfort, but sometimes, i still get in those moods where i am miserable and feel nothing like myself anymore
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@anxious Even if i were to say im uncomfortable and it makes me sad, it feels like im lying But it does make me sad. Im so depressed rn. Im angry at everything especially myself and crying at least once a day. I hate it. Cause the worse part is how my ocd has now made me feel about boys, took my attraction away and now gives me feelings of discomfort, thoughts of “why would someone even like guys” or “why are guys even attractive,” but im more comfortable w/ the intimate / romantic thoughts (ALSO I HEARD THIS IS VERY NORMAL FOR PEOPLE WITH HOCD) and i hate feeling like that towards guys cause i want them and just wanna fawn over them and be boy crazy And w/ girls i get like my head heating up, groinal responses and just utter hell and feel like i fawn over them when i dont want to and get so scared and hate it so much Does this even sound like ocd or just denial? Im so scared and confused :(
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@anxious Like brutal honesty
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