I can’t even tell if this OCD anymore, this sounds more like a psycho’s mind that someone with OCD ‘s mind. These thoughts about harming my family are getting really bad. These stupid “m*rdering your family” thoughts (damn god I sound freaking insane) keep rounding my head and I’m starting to lose my mind. Its like something wants me to do something bad and it’s “dragging” me to do it, so I just wanna die and disappear because I feel like each time I’m getting closer to do it. And I’m scared, I want to die before I do anything please help, I feel like something is pulling me onto it but I am trying so hard to escape it and I can’t. I feel like it’s gonna happen anyways and I am so desperate.

Harm OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

This is exactly what I’m going through right now. It’s sad because I get anxious around my own kids and makes it very difficult to enjoy my time around them. I’m not getting great sleep at night because the intrusive thoughts are constant. I never thought I would go through something like this, it’s got to the point where I’m being depressed I’m constantly on edge. Thinking I’m going insane. You are not alone

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I am so sorry this is definitely one very hard thing to go through, just know you are not alone and that u got this <3

Date posted: 4y

hey nothings dragging you to do anything. it's just the anxiety that makes it feel like an urge but it's actually the complete opposite. you're going through a lot of anxiety and dread right now, those are just physical symptoms that come with it! you are okay, you're not insane. i know exactly how you feel you're not alone on this.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Thank you so much for your help, yes I hope it is the anxiety. I am afraid that maybe if I stopped taking my pills I would actually end up doing something terrible :(

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Date posted: 4y

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Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Thank you so much for sharing this, because oh my god yes it feels so real. Like something is dragging you to do it so so bad, and it feels like it is really but really gonna happen. Like it doesn’t matter that they are not ur desires, it strongly feels like it’s going to become true. But tysm for sharing because it makes me relieved I’m not alone feeling like this :(

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Date posted: 4y

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Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Thank you so much!!!! The only problem is that I still haven’t been diagnosed with OCD, so I’m still not sure if I should do these things, because maybe they are something bad and not OCD :(

abiwoodhousex

Date posted: 4y

same here:((

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I wish you all the best, I know how hard it gets but we got this <3

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