this is not particularly ocd related but I need help. I have experienced all my life that most girls don’t like me and always find ways to make me feel insecure. Even girls that doesn’t me, I feel an energy that is very toxic from so many girls that I meet. But it’s always me that deals with it, I don’t know anyone else that experience it. I have been told that I am pretty and that I have a beautiful soul that makes other girls jealous, but I don’t understand what it is about me that makes other girls behaving like this towards me. Therefor I don’t have a lot of friends, that also has been a trigger to my hocd, can someone help me understand this?

Yeah, I have lost all hope in finding someone who is genuinely kind to me. I don’t know if I am too sensitive or just a girl that people get jealous of. I notice that a lot of girls know so much about me, and I don’t even know them. Today a girl knew where I studied, what I will study and knew things about my family, and I have never talked to her. She knows some girls that I studied with and I was so shocked at how much they know about me when I never talk to them

@🥰 I mean that’s one of my biggest problems with females is that they love to gossip. I’m not into it. I read your post to my husband and he asked if I wrote it! I wish I could say it gets better but it doesn’t. You just have to find one or two people to connect with. I know when I hang out with a group of women there will most likely be some form of dislike and I’ve accepted that.

@anonymous Yeah thank you for replying, it helps a lot to know that other goes through this too. And thank you for these tips it helped a lot! I am going to focus on meeting people that share the same energy as me! It’s hard but I think I will achieve it soon.

I tend to hang round with other girls because I don't want to loose their friendship (I literally had no friends a few months ago) but find boys far easier to talk to and get along with.

I truly feel like I am a nice person but maybe a little bit closed. I am very outgoing but also an introvert, I am a very supportive friend and I am a very emphatic person. I don’t know why I don’t connect with any female friends

@🥰 Well where do you meet friends? That’s really important

@Anonymous I spent almost every day at home where I studied now because of corona. So I didn’t make a lot of friends there but now I meet people at parties. My only friend invites me with her boyfriend and his friends at these parties and I think many of those people are bad for me. They are not my type of people so I guess i should look for friends other places?

@🥰 Exactly lol parties. Yes, set yourself up in higher vibe places. Stay away from people who drink do drugs etc bc they do not share the same morals rn as people who are doing positive things w their life

@Anonymous Thank you for asking me that question, it made me realize that I probably have grown from that party and drinking state. Going to parties is something I am used to and therefor it’s been hard to realize that I actually don’t like it anymore but i don’t have anything else to do because I feel stuck in that place. I am going to take some time for myself and my growth now and stop drinking so much because I don’t really like it anymore.

Thank you!! I have learned so much from your comments!