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today i climaxed to the thoughts and i feel like at this point i am just a lesbian in denial . this is like the biggest proof and i have been crying ever since
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I’m sorry you’re dealing with that :( HOCD is relentless.
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@queen of ruminating i feel like all of this is true and that is the biggest proof that i am in denial and that this isn't hocd just a sexuality crisis and that i have internalised homophobia too and i'm just a lesbian in denial. it doesn't even feel like hocd anymore it all feels so true and real
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@Nour04 I totally understand that feeling. Try to remember that OCD is always going to make itself feel as real as if possibly can. It’s nicknamed the “doubting disorder” for a reason!
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@queen of ruminating what if this isn't even ocd but just denial??
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@Nour04 Asking that question is not only reassurance seeking but seeking certainty and doubting all of which is OCD. But of course even with that information, your mind will come up with another doubt which will lead to you to ask another "what if" question. It's a cycle that repeats. Breaking the cycle is the only way to beat it. Easier said that done of course...
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@Jbm421 and then there it goes again. what if this isn't ocd and that's not the way to deal with whatever this is? i don't even know anymore, i don't even know what i want :( sorry for bugging you with this i just feel awful
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@Nour04 Listen ma. I've been exactly where you are. No need to be sorry. You are human. The more you seek answers and analyze the thoughts, the worse you'll feel. Trust me.
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@Jbm421 thank you so much for being so sweet to me. how are you doing?
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@Nour04 Not at my best but better than yesterday. I've done alot of hard work to heal but it's difficult. Lately the loss of attraction is bugging me but I'm ok.
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@Jbm421 The only way to dealwjs sjxj
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@Jbm421 oops sorry accidentally sent the message
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@Jbm421 if you ever need me i am here for you! i aspire to get to where you are now in recovery. you are so strong i am so proud of you!
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@Nour04 The only way I ever dealt with groinal resposne was just not caring and accepting they are groinal responses. But they are gone now. But so are moste of the thoughts.
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@Sizmix but this wasn't just a groinal you know :/
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@Nour04 Didnt read the whole thing, what else is going on?
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@Sizmix i climaxed to thoughts of girls
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@Nour04 Of having sex with them?
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@Sizmix just them being naked and maybe a little bit of that too yes
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@Nour04 I used to imagine having sex with people of the same gender to see if I am gay.
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@Sizmix i do this all the time but now i can't tell if i want it or not anymore. it all feels so real and true, it feels like i actually want it
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I was terrified when this first started happening to me.
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Yeah this is insanely painful. Every time I feel like I’m getting better I just have setbacks.
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Same here :/
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@queen of ruminating Sorry you have to go through this. I like your username btw lol.
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@Anonymous Thanks lol I thought it was very fitting!
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@queen of ruminating 😂
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@NGEYER What does your username mean Lol
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@Sizmix Initial and last name
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@Dodgerblue2003 Ohh
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I was having groinals yesterday. Overall, I have learned quite a bit on how to not put much importance on them (not I don't fail at that at times)...
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Me too. I’ve been doing pretty well lately in terms of not reacting to groinals, but sometimes it’s just too much to handle. (whether it’s bc of the trigger or the groinal itself)
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Does anyone else when they have the thoughts, they feel against it, but they still get arousal or tenglings sensations in the groinal area? Because this is what I experienced today and I feel like crap. This is going to be very triggering for a lot of you, but there are a lot of times that I notice things from kids. For example, there is a thirteen year old kid who looks very developed for her age, and I take notice of (and this already sounds creepy to me) her chest. Today with my thoughts, I imagined as if I were touching it, and although I usually "no no or "I don't want to do that", she is a kid, etc., I still get responses in my groinal area, and It felt very real. Even now, I feel as though I am faking it, even though I groan 😮💨 from it, and feel as though I am a fraud. Does anyone relate?
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hi does anyone ever get a random grounal response then feel aroused but you don’t want to be like before i had the thought i was feeling a little aroused then i had a random thought and it had the ground response and i felt aroused i don’t understand.
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i saw an instagram reel and i noticed a disturbing sight of a trigger with a noticeable bottom and the very moment i noticed and compulsively looked to check i felt a groinal response. what does this mean?
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