I feel like im never gonna love a man and i like girls and am just in denial I just wanna be one of those girls that fawn over shirtless boys again and are boy crazy soooo badly Its not fair:( At least to know i like guys and dont feel like this

That’s awesome you didn’t have to take meds mine got really bad social anxiety and depression it’s messed up god bless you man I hope to god above we all get through this so painful man sometimes I want to end it

@Andrew Hey mate did you see my comment above ?

@Andrew Sorry mate I get really triggered when people don't reply. I'm so lost 😞

@Ihateocd83 I replied!

@Andrew No not to mine mate but it's cool

@Andrew 10 hours ago the 38 year old

See even before i was never boy crazy I got this when i was 12/13 and im 18 now, so i was just starting to be interested in a guys (literally like four months before i told my grandpa who i was really close too that i think im starting to like guys) and i only ever saw guys as romantic partners even though i knew it was possible to like girls (i just never really thought about it or cared until hocd) Like right before this hit i had my first sex dream with a guy and enjoyed it And then this would come and go and the last time it went i was 15 and fell in love with a guy but since him / then there’s just been nothing Im so scared :( I feel like i was a lesbian as a child and didnt realize it And this false attraction / ocd shit has gotta be the most confusing thing ever

Do you feel like this too?

Um yeah we can text over insta! Mines @annehatesocd

And ohhh see i never experimented past like childhood “show me yours and ill show you mine” or spying on your friends getting changed (i did that once) But the following year a girl tried to strip in front of me when i was 11, and got fully naked and tried to come onto me (she’s a lesbian now) and i shielded my eyes and yelled at her that it was disgusting

@hate_ocd.123 I did experimented when I was young but told the boy to act like a girl, for years I felt shame because of what I did, I remember I called myself a bunch of names for doing it before I got hocd and was 100000 percent straight, I hated myself for what I did when I was young but then I realized it’s normal for kids to do that stuff when their young, apparently most straight people did it when they were young yknow

@dylen Yea man I just think it’s fucking feeding this though like a reason for me to believe it you know

There’s no such thing as experimenting when you’re 9…. You were playing. Children have 0 concept of sexuality, attraction, and sex until around again 12 or again much much later ! You did something you’re seeing as unacceptable and inappropriate but so many of us did this too

@Justmesadly Thank God for this comment, what’s scary is I got hocd at 12 yrs old

@dylen That’s okay babe. I don’t think that changes anything

@Justmesadly That’s great then, at first I thought it was just puberty and for 2 yrs suffered until I realized it was hocd

@Ocd Warrior same i got it at 12!

Hey mate I would like to talk to you ?

@Andrew Please delete your phone number

I'm really struggling with this loss of attraction. I don't even think of girls and it feels like I'm attracted to men and there genitals and don't really like women's. but I know I'm still attracted to women like I couldn't keep my eyes off them even since this all started at 22 years of age and I never questioned my sexuality before then. I'm 38 now and it just feels as tho I want to be with a man. But I just can't that. And I think I find it disgusting but I'm not even sure now 😔

Sorry mate I don't have Snapchat