No one has the same thoughts I have 😔

Was it quick orgy or overtime

@dylen no it happened so quickly which made it feel like i wanted it. at first i was thinking of guys but nothing happened and then i wanted to test and check so i thought about girls and it was so quick it felt like i wanted it

@Ihateocd83 To me it makes me feel I must be gay but I'm not sure if it's real or not

@Ihateocd83 you mean your thoughts or what happened to me???

@Nour04 The orgy, if it was quick it is something called a stress orgy, it’s because of all the checking you do

@Nour04 Did it feel wayyyyy stronger than a normal orgasm, like pleasurable but kinda overwhelming

@dylen now i am trying to remember if it was quick or not and i am not sure and it is causing me distress!! it did build up overtime but like it took me way less time than any other one i remember really enjoying, unless i was really turned on. i don't know if you get what i mean though, but as soon as i started thinking about girls it got so intense so fast and built up tension faster than the usual (i guess, i really hope so)

@dylen i stopped touching as soon as it hit and started crying, so like i couldn't feel how strong it was

@Nour04 and all the time when i started feeling it was close i was like "please don't finish please this will only mean you like it please don't" and i remember being so distressed about it ans begging for me not to finish to it so fast

@Nour04 Yea than that’s normal stress orgasm, people who are raped can have very quick orgasms, look it up, even if it’s not wanted the body reacts to fear and stuff like that, I remember I would play call of duty or violent games as a kid and get a huge erection either tho I wasn’t attracted to what was in the games, just violence and all can cause fear and the body then reacts to it sexually for some reason

@Nour04 Yea I’ve gone through the same, I guess the best thing to do is let the thought be, even if they cause an orgasm understand that even if you felt like you enjoyed it, that you can’t know for sure until your recovered, I know it’s gonna be hard but reacting with fear will only cause it to happen more and more

@dylen thank you so much for being so patient and helping me figure this out a bit. this has been amazing tbh thank you so much!!!! btw how are you??

@Nour04 I’m exhausted tbh, everything feel to real, it feels like I want to have sex with my best friend who might be gay, I’m unsure since he’s never said, but I’m just so annoyed, I had one of those quick orgys a few mins ago and it sucks because it feels like I like it but it also feels so fake, the groinal responses and arousal sucks to

@dylen I have to keep pushing, even if it feels real, I have to stop ruminating and accept the uncertainty like I’ve been

@dylen i am so proud of you!! if you ever need me i am here for you <3

@Nour04 Thank you very much, honestly the thought of liking men just seems so blank, I’m so sick of accepting the uncertainty that I could just be a little bit gay, but it’s the only way

@dylen No one answers me on here?

@Ihateocd83 Tell me about it

@dylen I'm so alone with this 😔

@Ihateocd83 Your not alone bro, I promise, I know it feels that way but yku aren’t