This is in regards to porn usage so 18 + So I used to read nsfw fanfic a lot , as a kid and an adult. Ive been questioning and ruminating lately over fanfic over characters with unconfirmed ages , and not knowing what age I imagined them in my head while reading. This is coming from someone who has unfortunately been exposed to a lot of taboo porn in the past and never really thought about it until my ocd developed. I have POCD and this has been really difficult for me to wrap my head around. Does anybody else have ocd with porn usage ? I'm questioning my motivation so much , and I'm worried if I go back and find the fic their ages will be confirmed somewhere . Even if I aged them up in my head or never saw the characters as younger than 18 (they were either 17/18 at the start of the show and my age by the end of it ) it still is bothering me . Just wondering if anyone else relates. Its very hard not to see porn usage as acting on intrusive thoughts

I relate, I was exposed to porn at a young age and saw taboo stuff and it fuels my ocd to the point where it feels like “proof” . I did erp with a therapist for it and it helped

I've been exposed to this horrible stuff as early as 13 years old. It completely altered my high school experience. It unfortunately all began with cartoon Pornography with characters that are either my age or a little bit older than I was. I saw a lot of it thinking it was okay and I didn't know how to actually convey any of the emotions. All I knew is that it felt strong and what I was saying was something new so for many years I've put two and two together. If I never saw anything that was in regards to porn, I would not be suffering with OCD. So much taboo shit that just flies in even the most popular sites. It messes with your head. I'm more than 100 days free. I totally get you with the whole "proof" thing when it comes to porn. It's hard not to combine the two together. But believe it or not, porn is not the same as reality. There are plenty of people that have escalated to genres and fetishes they didn't even know existed. I know I sure have. That doesn't mean it all of a sudden ties into who you are as a person. There's only one fetish I've developed without the use of pornography and I've accepted that, but literally nothing else I accept. You aren't the porn you've seen in the past. You're not a bad person for it either. OCD will tell you that you are but you aren't. https://fightthenewdrug.org/ this website is really amazing when it comes to getting all the facts about this horrid industry.