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I relate, I was exposed to porn at a young age and saw taboo stuff and it fuels my ocd to the point where it feels like “proof” . I did erp with a therapist for it and it helped
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How do you feel about it now ?
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@Anonymous Better, but sometimes it still attacks me. Definitely one of my worst obsessions
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@Isabella Its certainly difficult to not be so hard on ourselves for these things. I hope It gets better for you
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@Anonymous Thanks i hope it does for you too! It makes me feel extremely guilty and I judge myself so hard for it
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@Isabella I just started on my erp journey , hopefully I can be completely candid with my therapist about this
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@Anonymous Yeah don’t be afraid to tell them anything, your ocd might try to lie to you and create a fear about it
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@Isabella Yeah I definitely get afraid the things I say could be incriminating tbh but I also know thats a symptom too
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I've been exposed to this horrible stuff as early as 13 years old. It completely altered my high school experience. It unfortunately all began with cartoon Pornography with characters that are either my age or a little bit older than I was. I saw a lot of it thinking it was okay and I didn't know how to actually convey any of the emotions. All I knew is that it felt strong and what I was saying was something new so for many years I've put two and two together. If I never saw anything that was in regards to porn, I would not be suffering with OCD. So much taboo shit that just flies in even the most popular sites. It messes with your head. I'm more than 100 days free. I totally get you with the whole "proof" thing when it comes to porn. It's hard not to combine the two together. But believe it or not, porn is not the same as reality. There are plenty of people that have escalated to genres and fetishes they didn't even know existed. I know I sure have. That doesn't mean it all of a sudden ties into who you are as a person. There's only one fetish I've developed without the use of pornography and I've accepted that, but literally nothing else I accept. You aren't the porn you've seen in the past. You're not a bad person for it either. OCD will tell you that you are but you aren't. https://fightthenewdrug.org/ this website is really amazing when it comes to getting all the facts about this horrid industry.
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I’m worried about times when Child P*rn or suspicious porn videos have come up in the past. I tend to use Twitter for porn and it’s not the most moderated app out there but I was never looking for videos or pictures or anything related to that. Unfortunately stuff still has popped up and I’m just worried about if my reaction was perfect because I have intense POCD I want to say it’s nearly as severe as it can get so I just feel as if I remember times when something suspicious came up and I stayed for a moment to make sure I wasn’t attracted or maybe left and came back to be sure I was safe and didn’t like it and I’m afraid this counts as seeking out or engaging in illegal content that would get me in trouble. I’ve never once looked this stuff up and anyone who creates saves distributed or likes this stuff I believe deserves prison time for life but I’m just so worried that I didn’t react in the way I should’ve I’m 20 years old so I’m relatively young and I’m jus worried about what this means about me any one else deal with anything similar?
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Hi everyone, I'm struggling with what I think are intrusive thoughts, possibly related to OCD, and I'm hoping someone here might relate. When I was younger, in my early teens, I went through a period where I had a strong interest in pornography. During that time, I encountered hentai involving male characters, related to an anime I enjoyed. One of the characters was someone I even looked up to. I feel incredibly uncomfortable admitting this, but I believe I engaged in sexual activity related to it. Years later, I'm plagued by intrusive thoughts about this. I feel intense self-disgust and shame. It's like this memory has "tainted" my ability to enjoy that anime, and sometimes other things. I'm constantly replaying the situation in my mind, questioning my past actions, and worrying about what it means about me. The anxiety is significantly impacting my life. Does anyone else experience intrusive thoughts focused on past events, particularly those that cause feelings of shame or disgust? How do you cope with the constant replaying and questioning? I'm looking for support and understanding. Thank you for listening.
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TW: porn mentioned When I was younger around 18-19 or maybe younger, I stumbled across some porn labeled as 'teen'. I don't remember if I watched it or get scared away by 'teen', but I then searched for porn something like '18-teen years old', I wanted to make sure it was legal. Now I'm spiraling that I did it because I wanted to see someone younger. Or what my intentions could possibly be? It happened for once or I cannot remembered searching something similar ever again. I've always preferred bigger more masculine men, but why I did that then? I had active porn addiction since I was 9 or I'm afraid younger, watched some things that I regret watching... And now I'm 23 and don't watch it all for like 3 years, because I found out that it was unethical. When I was little I preferred BDSM porn and everyone was very mature and I did not watched anything questionable with real people, but some weird fictional stuff, but didn't like it. Now that I remember this I'm very confused and don't know how to continue living with that. I'm just done...
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