it feels refreshing when i have those periods throughout the day where i completely forget that i have hocd

yeah hocd is fucked up like that😭😭 i experienced the same thing just last week and i ignored it and it went away

hi!! i have been dealing with this for almost a year so i totally relate to what you are saying. there were some days where i was so convinced my thoughts were real and that i had completely lost my self identity. the one thing that has helped me TREMENDOUSLY is accepting the uncertainty. for example, when i am watching a movie and get the thoughts “oh you are attracted to them. you are gay” i just say “that may or may not be true. im just gonna let the thoughts float and not try and figure them out” and that helped decrease my anxiety A TON. treating the thoughts just as thoughts is the key to recovery. you cant let it get to you no matter how real it feels. ocd can feel as real as it gets. looking back i can see how ridiculous some of my thoughts were. also one of my biggest struggles is the loss of attraction. for that i didnt force it at all. you have to let your body feel so that it can heal. let the ocd run its course and dont do anything to stop it. sitting with the anxiety is so hard but so worth it in the end. its best to put yourself through a month of tons of anxiety cause by the end you will feel so much better and have tons of clarity. another tip is to stop trying to figure out your sexuality while you still have hocd. your brain is going to think of hundreds of what if questions and wont let you have peace so just sit with the uncertainty. stay true to tje person you were before this cause that is the real you

what part are you struggling with the most if you dont mind me asking. groinals? false attraction? loss of attraction? nightmares? thoughts?

@ocdomi I’m struggling most with loss of attraction, thoughts and I’m looking back on memories to ruminate whether there were signs I was gay or whether I had crushes on my past best friends

@ocdomi ty SO much for answering me. I will try to sit with the uncertainty bc I don’t want hocd no more

@ocdomi My brain is telling me that all my past crushes on boys weren’t real and were actually comphet. And also, I can’t imagine myself having romantic relationships with guys anymore. It feels like I’ll never be able to fall for a guy and enjoy it. It seems as if eventually I’ll fall for a girl and realize it was just denial. I’m so sad and scared. Every time I look back at my past I find more and more proof i’m lesbian.

@strawberry ice cream you don’t understand how much i get how you are feeling. for the loss of attention what i did is i didnt force it at all. every time i was a cute guy my mind would go “you don’t actually like him you sre just forcing yourself to” even though deep down i knew i was attracted to him. i just went “ok sure ocd you make total sense” and i didnt force myself to be attracted to every man cause thats just going to make it worse. i eventually got it back and it isnt 100% there but at least ik i have some of it back. for the thoughts, they will never go away. they will SIGNIFICANTLY decrease if you dont give them importance. the more you ruminate the longer they will stay. just treat them as any other thought and dont give them importance. ocd will always find a way to get to you so no matter how real it feels just let it float in your mind and accept the uncertainty. i also used to look back in the past to see if there were any signs. its a basic tactic that ocd uses to get you deeper into its cycle so when a though like that occurs just stop what you are doing, breathe, count to three, and move on with your life. stop worryibg about the past or future and focus on the present. when i first read about comphet it also scared me but the one main thing about it is society. people that are gay will feel forced to like the opposite sex. it doesnt feel natural. when you liked a boy did it feel natural? did you do it cause everyone else did it? did you enjoy the feeling of having a crush on a boy? for me i answered yes, no, yes and that helped me determine that comphet doesnt match with me. for me the fear went from “am i lesbian?” but then i got my attraction back so then it went to “am i bisexual?” and then i determined that i jusy dont feel any attraction for women besides aesthetic and now its “when i recover will i turn gay?” now that thought is simply illogical cause you cant turn gay but ocd doesnt work well with logic so my mind is trying to convince me that it will happen. just continue pushing and uou will gain so much clarity and be able to think rationally. lmk if you need anything!!

@ocdomi ty so much! and yes, when i liked a boy was the best time of my life. I was so happy. I wanted to talk to him all the time and I felt butterflies all the time

@strawberry ice cream then hold on to that. sexuality is set at birth so please continue pushing cause i really want you to find your prince charming and be happy

@ocdomi aww ty so much!! ❤️❤️ I hope you find yours too❤️❤️

@strawberry ice cream tysm💘💘

@ocdomi I’m so sorry for jumping in but when you try and sit with the uncertainty do you never get thoughts like you’re just denying reality or avoiding thinking about it cos you’re ‘lying to yourself’? I’ve had this for nearly 7 years and whenever I try to sit with the uncertainty I always get pulled back into rumination because I feel like if don’t search my memory and imagine scenarios then I’m accepting it. Again, sorry for jumping in, I just thought this was a really helpful thread.

@b13 no need to apologize!! i get the same thoughts so you arent alone hahahaha. ocd wants you to be constantly ruminating so of course its going to feel wrong when you arent doing it. its a basic ocd tactic to keep you in the cycle. it will never let you come to a logical conclusion so its going to make you continue thinking so you have to refrain from giving in and ruminating

@ocdomi it’s so frustrating when you know the answer to helping yourself but it feels impossible to achieve, thank you for answering !

@b13 yes exactly thats why ocd sucks😭😭 and np if you ever need anything feel free to message me!!