I am literally so worried and overwhelmed right now. I have no idea what the hell is going on with me. I woke up from a nap today and I had a terrible thought. The worst is that I felt like I was considering it. I thought of doing something terrible to my mom and my sister. And I think I CONSIDERED IT. What the actual freak!! 😭 I feel like I am a psychopath. That’s it. I feel like I’m a freaking psychopath and like I want to do all these things but I’m trying so so so so hard not to do it or for it not to happen. I am so freaked out because I feel like I will end up doing it sooner or later, at some point of my life. I don’t know how to escape it, I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’ll get home and do all what my thoughts say. I feel like this evil side will take over me. I feel evil. And I don’t know how to escape it. I hate it, I flew all through the country to come to see my sister and I was so excited to see her, and now this horrible thing has ruined everything. I am terrified. Help, please.

Harm OCD

Liz F

Date posted: 4y

You’re not evil. The thoughts bother you and that is a great indication you’re not evil and you don’t want to do the things your mind tells you. I have Harm OCD and mine is always about my husband and kids. It sucks! One thing to remember is you’re not alone. So many ppl suffer from this and we are not evil we just have chemical imbalances that trigger these thoughts. You’re going to be ok. You’re not going to hurt anyone. I also read that saying “yet” is also great when it comes to ocd thoughts. If you say well I’ve had these thoughts and haven’t done it yet as in I’ve made it through these thoughts before and never acted on them. It may help you. It doesn’t necessarily help me all the time but it has in the past when I’ve just had enough of thinking those things. You’re in my thoughts and Prayers❤️

Jon G

Date posted: 4y

Wow! I thought I was alone. Mine is always about my wife and kids. Everyday I'm scared to be in my own home. We will get through this! I'm praying for guidance for all of us 🙏 This too shall pass

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Thank you so much for sharing this, for real, I appreciate you so much for this. You’re really sweet❤️ Thank you so much for giving me strength and words of support, this is really hard to deal with, but it’s kinda relieving to know I’m not alone. Sometimes it feels like my thoughts and feelings are different, so I might not have OCD, it’s scary and it sucks. Thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers, you’re in mine too, god bless you❤️

ocdsuxxx

Date posted: 4y

I experience this exactly every single day word for word . Just tell yourself no I’m not gunna do that and walk away ur stronger I struggle with feeling like I’m gunna do the thoughts and want to daily ita so hard :( stay strong 💜💜💜

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

You don’t know how much relieve it gives me that you’ve shared that with me, i really do appreciate it. I am really sorry you struggle with the same thing, I know how hard it is but we’re stronger than our minds. Thank you so so much and stay strong as well, you got this❤️

Jon G

Date posted: 4y

@ Anonymous Your true self is the person that will never harm your family or Anyone. I struggle with this daily. And you will get through this. I too felt those urges but it always passes. Please have faith and believe. I believe in you!

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Sometimes it feels like I’m barely holding onto that person :( but thank you so much for being there for me, I appreciate you so much, seriously ❤️ thank you again for your support, take much care <3

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