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You’re not evil. The thoughts bother you and that is a great indication you’re not evil and you don’t want to do the things your mind tells you. I have Harm OCD and mine is always about my husband and kids. It sucks! One thing to remember is you’re not alone. So many ppl suffer from this and we are not evil we just have chemical imbalances that trigger these thoughts. You’re going to be ok. You’re not going to hurt anyone. I also read that saying “yet” is also great when it comes to ocd thoughts. If you say well I’ve had these thoughts and haven’t done it yet as in I’ve made it through these thoughts before and never acted on them. It may help you. It doesn’t necessarily help me all the time but it has in the past when I’ve just had enough of thinking those things. You’re in my thoughts and Prayers❤️
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Wow! I thought I was alone. Mine is always about my wife and kids. Everyday I'm scared to be in my own home. We will get through this! I'm praying for guidance for all of us 🙏 This too shall pass
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Thank you so much for sharing this, for real, I appreciate you so much for this. You’re really sweet❤️ Thank you so much for giving me strength and words of support, this is really hard to deal with, but it’s kinda relieving to know I’m not alone. Sometimes it feels like my thoughts and feelings are different, so I might not have OCD, it’s scary and it sucks. Thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers, you’re in mine too, god bless you❤️
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I experience this exactly every single day word for word . Just tell yourself no I’m not gunna do that and walk away ur stronger I struggle with feeling like I’m gunna do the thoughts and want to daily ita so hard :( stay strong 💜💜💜
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You don’t know how much relieve it gives me that you’ve shared that with me, i really do appreciate it. I am really sorry you struggle with the same thing, I know how hard it is but we’re stronger than our minds. Thank you so so much and stay strong as well, you got this❤️
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@ Anonymous Your true self is the person that will never harm your family or Anyone. I struggle with this daily. And you will get through this. I too felt those urges but it always passes. Please have faith and believe. I believe in you!
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Sometimes it feels like I’m barely holding onto that person :( but thank you so much for being there for me, I appreciate you so much, seriously ❤️ thank you again for your support, take much care <3
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- 20w
I'm at my college and don't feel like being here. I didn't even want to come here. I woke up with anxiety bc i feel like i need to solve this. I had a bad stomach ache when i arrived to school and still havent even eaten breakfast yet bc i feel like i have to solve this. Im just so worried bc i have harm thoughts daily. If i could i would remove this! I dont want to think anymore. Its just, how do I know i dont have real urges when I'm feeling a negative emotion like anger or disappointment or annoyance? Im worried EVERY time i feel a negative emotion. Yesterday I was playing video games with my neice (we are close in age range) and she made us lose. She started blaming me and I guess i felt a little annoyed, it really wasnt my fault (dumb mini argument it was more playful since we started laughing but it was a bit annoying). Anyway i got a harm thought while feeling annoyed of me getting off the couch and lunging at her to attack. I immediately look at my bodily reaction and I tense up to stay as still as possible. My stomach was hurting and i wanted to leave as fast as possible. I stood up and turned off the game and said i was tired while making sure to stay back from her (and i had my hands away and stiff) but i felt so uneasy. I laid I bed and felt sad and heavy. And i kept getting thoughts that said "íts only a matter of time before you can't take it anymore". I started to reassurance seek using ai to ask if i was about to or if they are real urges or thoughts i mean until i eventually fell asleep in the middle of the compulsion. Im just so worried, what if I act out impulsevly one day? I dont want to! But what if when feeling a negative emotion, i suddenly dont care and do something? I really dont want to! I dont even want to feel negative emotions anymore since they trigger the thoughts and I dont want to think about any of that. As a result i tend to avoid my family as much as possible bc they are annoying sometimes. I just wish i was all alone sometimes so i wont get any more thoughts and so everyone can be safe. I usually just stay in bed under my blankets all day long to avoid my family and pets. I am constantly uncomfortable. I miss when i would never think any of this. Living life has become very scary for me now. 😞
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i had thoughts of “planning” to harm my boyfriend. we have a trip coming up and my intrusive thoughts were telling me “nobody will know if you harm him all the way over there”, then my mind started rambling on like “everyone will know-“ and so on and so forth, it actually made me feel like i was contemplating on doing something and now it feels like im turning evil ): has anyone had thoughts like this?
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Guys I feel a bit bothered. I fear I liked a thought bc my sister was showing me this video about a robbery and right before she was going to show me I was thinking "no... tsk this is not what I want to see. Dont think of anything." But i had to watch bc my sister was already playing the video. I tried to not pay as much attention. I hate watching videos that have stuff related to harm bc ocd loves to latch on. I got so many thoughts. But when I saw the person pull out a weapon and the cashier jump extremely high, I felt like laughing??? But not bc of what was going on but bc "why did he jump like that? It was so high! You know what? I would've jumped liked this too. That's scary!" And then I felt angry for the cashier bc why do evil people commit such things? How the heck? But ocd says i laughed bc I felt a sense of superiority and liked seeing people scared and want to feel a distorted sense of power. Like.. no? I knew I felt like laughing bc I didn't expect him to jump so high and I wanted to point it out but decided not to bc the video is serious, and it's not a movie. But I feel kinda guilty like why tf did I feel like laughing. I didn't even smile or actually laugh irl but it's bothering me. Then my sister showed me some other video and explained a specific weapon and I kept getting thoughts like "ohhh i want that! I wanna scare people too! I want to test the thoughts to double check if i actually like them" And it gave me an image of me doing something crazy like robbing a store as well! AND IT FELT REAL! I WASNT EVEN WANTING TO THINK THIS! Im worried this means its real or that i enjoyed the thought and fantasized, but at the same time ik im not actually interested nor do I have plans but what if I WANTED to for those few seconds?! Bc why did it FEEL like I enjoyed it??? I know I wouldn't, i dont have plans to nor do i want to think about making plans and I'm genuinely not interested but WHAT IF??? Did i enjoy this thought?! It felt like I wanted to bc I didn't immediately reject it like usual and for some reason felt "happy" (i didnt smile or anything but it FELT like i was happy???) Literally right after the thought came i was thinking to myself "OMG is that true?" And couldn't focus on anything else! How do I know I didnt genuinely enjoy and dont have some weird sense of power??? It's been bothering me so much, this happened a couple hours ago and I managed to fall asleep in the middle of my compulsion of mentally reviewing how I reacted to my thoughts.
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