can anyone talk???

@Ope Same here Ope. I have been married 10 years. I am 41. I had 1 sexual thought/urge when I was 25 with the same sex but was able to deal with it. Now I am dealing with more than one thought but actually was diagnosed with OCD as it has been consuming me.

@Ope Just wanted to jump in and say you and I are going through a very similar experience! Exact same fear. Also been married to my husband for one year and want more than anything to be with him and be confident and happy in my marriage. We’ll get through this, somehow

it’s about trans ocd

i’m literally freaking out bc i feel like this isn’t ocd anymore and i’m really gonna be that way. i’m so terrified.

@Anonymous Here to talk as well.

@ClaraJ i feel like i can’t handle this. i just feel like i’m gonna loose everything if this is real and why is this happening

@Anonymous I totally get it. Remember feelings are not facts. Another thing I like to remember is a quote I found at the beginning of my ocd journey that I always come back to. “Intuition and anxiety are not the same. Intuition rarely feels scary” Keep answering you’re ocd’s questions with maybe? Maybe not? It feels so counter intuitive because all you want to do is figure it out but remember, there’s nothing to figure out. You answer 100 questions and ocd had 101. Every thought you have… maybe….maybe not

@ClaraJ but i’m so scared bc i have like imagined it and i get so anxious but it’s always there. i’m terrified bc i can’t just sit here with out imagining a part that i don’t have and being anxious about it. my face is like burning hot bc i’m so scared.

@Anonymous I understand. I’ve been there. I thought I’d have to end my marriage and leave my son and husband because I wasn’t living my truth. I only started to thinking clearly and feel like myself again once I leaned into the uncertainty. Right now the scariest thought is “what if I’m trans” right? Well so what if you are! What if im gay? I don’t want to be so I won’t be. You don’t want to be trans so you don’t have to be. Our brain likes to make it seem so complicated. It’s not. Maybe you are maybe you aren’t. Maybe we all are maybe we aren’t? I can’t prove im anything! No one can. Just sit with the uncertainty. Take a breath. Press the SOS button. That’s my go to when I feel like it’s all too heavy.

@Ope I’m so happy to hear that!! I struggle with the same thing. It TORTURED me. Truly one of the most traumatizing experiences of my life. But right now im in a good place so im here for anyone that feels like they can’t see the light. It can feel so dark, confusing, and lonely. It’s crazy what our minds can convince us of

what do u mean changed ur sexuality