- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Mine changed to suicidal and harm after teenage years, as a kid I had child fears...
I have harm ocd and rocd now. I originally only had harm ocd
Mine has only been harm since the beginning of may 2020
Hi! Mine has only really been harm ocd and suicidal ocd, it’s never really changed. I do have a bit of relationship/health ocd sprinkled in as well though! I’ve been on this journey with suicidal ocd since about august of 2020. It’s a biiiiiitch. But i didn’t get diagnosed until February!
I’m 42 and I had harm ocd on and off in severity since I was 7
Dam i sorry that’s so hard
Okay so I’ve dealt with harm OCD from the beginning. Started off with harming my kids, going to jail and then harming myself. The harm to myself stuck around for a long time. Then it went away and other themes picked up but it keeps coming back. This is like the third time it’s come back and every single time it comes back it feels worse. It feels like this is the time something is going to happen. Has anyone ever dealt with this? With old themes constantly coming back and feeling more real? Please any advice is greatly appreciated. Thanks
Anyone else feel that when they aren’t experiencing a theme that their ocd is almost non existent. It almost makes me feel like I’ve been faking it, and also makes me feel ridiculous for obsessing over things. I feel sorry for myself :/ I know that my themes are valid and felt very real in the moment, but after I “get over” them I just can’t believe that I was obsessing over something that either wasn’t true or didn’t apply to me. I would also like to know how to prevent themes from reoccurring. Health, religion and existential OCD themes tend to take turns throughout my life, I just didn’t know that was it ocd. Trying to break the cycle.
So with my theme of ocd, ( hocd ) I get persistent intrusive images, and thoughts. It’s not like one or two a day. Like if I’m out for the whole day they’re constant. I feel I can’t even look at a girl now without her intrusive thoughts about her or about me fancying her and even sexual intrusive thoughts.. It’s awful. It’s everywhere I look. Is this common with ocd with any themes? Like is it constant for you guys too?
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