I am feeling so much worse than I have in months. It’s like it’s all been bubbling under the surface and now it’s coming back full force. I am almost certain that I developed HOCD as a coping mechanism because I have severe internalized homophobia. There are just too many signs in my childhood/past that point to me being at the very least bisexual. It feels like when I “let myself be bi” that I’m happy and at peace, but I feel sick afterwards. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to continue living if this is my life. I am so fucking scared to do ERP, because I’m almost positive I’m going to come out of it being bisexual. Please, someone help. Please. I just need to talk.

Sexual Orientation OCD

hate_ocd.123

Date posted: 4y

Hey! I’m here for you! I feel the exact same way as you:(

missbluesky

Date posted: 4y

I’ve ruined my life and my familys lives with this. I feel low the only way out is accepting I’m bisexual

Legallyocd

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

Hey I’m here for you too

Legallyocd

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

Remember that even if you would accept your fear as in you come out and go the whole nine yards your brain will still find a way to make you feel the opposite because ocd can never ever have certainty so before making that decision it is better to go through treatment and get to a place where you can live parallel to your thoughts

Legallyocd

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

Once the storm passes and you still feel like that is what you want to do you then you go ahead and make that decision

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