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- 3y ago
- Date posted
- 3y ago
You’re not a monster, the thoughts (which aren’t your own) are the monster. You wont cause any harm, remind yourself you are in control of your actions. Breathe, you can get through this ❤️
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- 3y ago
thank you so much
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- 3y ago
I feel this way. I feel like my thoughts have now fully convinced me I am. Like I even tell myself in my mind I am. Like if I read anything about pedophiles or see anything about one . I feel like I relate . This does worry me. Also because I’m not in distress about it. Like I don’t want the thoughts in my head and it’s depressing to wake up with the thoughts and feel like I am one but I’m not in distress like before.
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- 3y ago
Relate in the sense that I feel like I am one. Before I was going back and fourth and like more in denial. I still feel denial and such but not like before. Idk. Maybe I’ve just veered more towards accepting the thoughts as factual. Which I know they say you’re not supposed to do. Idk. I don’t like to think about me feeling this way in the long term or future or I’ll get more depressed. I’m trying to motivate myself to go out to workout somewhat and have a normal routine to occupy my mind from feeling this way. I just feel like it’s always in the back of my mind now even when I’m not really preoccupied with he thoughts.
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- 3y ago
i know exactly how you feel. it is really depressing. i also wake up with a bunch of horrible thoughts not even 5 minutes of me waking up. i know it feels like you're something that you're not, but remember that this won't be forever. it will pass at some point it doesn't have to be soon but we will get through this!! and hopefully you've gotten/will get the help you need. you're not alone.
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- 3y ago
i feel like deep down i'm this monster that's coming out
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- 23w ago
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- 14w ago
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- 12w ago
I feel like a really terrible person right now, I keep replaying this, and no matter what I can’t remember what happened, it’s like my brain is purposely not letting me think about it. Without wasting any more time, I’ll get into it. Basically, I was at Walmart, and looking at cards with My Dad, I saw anime ones, took pictures of them for my sister, even ones that were anime kids, because I did my best to ignore it, so I looked at a Hunter x Hunter card, I stared at the black haired kid, being all like “ I’m glad I’m not having any thoughts about this, I’m glad I’m having normal thoughts and not thinking anything” I felt happy, then as soon as I looked at killua (white haired kid), everything collapsed. I don’t know what happened, my brain won’t let me remember. But I’ll give bits and pieces. I think that I had false attraction, and something in my head, said “oh, I wouldn’t mind being attracted.” “He is attractive, and I’m attracted to him.” “I remember a girl thinking he is attractive and he is” “ It’s not wrong to be attracted” “ I don’t care about his age” .. something along the lines of that, and now I’m panicking super hard, because I’m worried if I said those things, I feel like I ruined my life that I’m a pe//do and deserve nothing, idk what to do, I feel terrible… I remember when I was having the intrusive thoughts, I was panicking and was worrying, but it kept playing out, and I kept hearing things talk, it was drawn out too long, that now I feel convinced that I was saying those things, I tested it too, and I can confirm that I didn’t say that, but why am I still not convinced? I know I wouldn’t say those things, I was hoping the complete opposite would happen. My brain kept making me feel like it wasn’t wrong and it was okay. Maybe that’s why I’m so convinced I did that. I’m just spiraling super bad right now, I don’t know what to do or what to think, I don’t know if I said that or not… even if I did test it, I genuinely just feel like I said it, and I wanted it, because I still feel uncertain, I still feel like I said it, part of me just wants to be like oh I did and so I can move on, not because I agree with it, I just don’t know what else to do… I’m really scared.
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