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- Date posted
- 4y
c1604c1604
- Date posted
- 4y
You’re not a monster, the thoughts (which aren’t your own) are the monster. You wont cause any harm, remind yourself you are in control of your actions. Breathe, you can get through this ❤️
bb
- Date posted
- 4y
thank you so much
JojoJojo
- Date posted
- 4y
I feel this way. I feel like my thoughts have now fully convinced me I am. Like I even tell myself in my mind I am. Like if I read anything about pedophiles or see anything about one . I feel like I relate . This does worry me. Also because I’m not in distress about it. Like I don’t want the thoughts in my head and it’s depressing to wake up with the thoughts and feel like I am one but I’m not in distress like before.
JojoJojo
- Date posted
- 4y
Relate in the sense that I feel like I am one. Before I was going back and fourth and like more in denial. I still feel denial and such but not like before. Idk. Maybe I’ve just veered more towards accepting the thoughts as factual. Which I know they say you’re not supposed to do. Idk. I don’t like to think about me feeling this way in the long term or future or I’ll get more depressed. I’m trying to motivate myself to go out to workout somewhat and have a normal routine to occupy my mind from feeling this way. I just feel like it’s always in the back of my mind now even when I’m not really preoccupied with he thoughts.
bb
- Date posted
- 4y
i know exactly how you feel. it is really depressing. i also wake up with a bunch of horrible thoughts not even 5 minutes of me waking up. i know it feels like you're something that you're not, but remember that this won't be forever. it will pass at some point it doesn't have to be soon but we will get through this!! and hopefully you've gotten/will get the help you need. you're not alone.
bb
- Date posted
- 4y
i feel like deep down i'm this monster that's coming out
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- Date posted
- 25w
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i’m so scared im going to lose control and end up locked up or something. this is so exhausting!! i worry that what i have isn’t OCD and that im genuinely insane and im gonna end up in big trouble or that the urges i have are going to actually happen. i dont want to think these things ! i feel like a horrible human being!!
andrewt_
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 21w
I believe I’m a monster.
My body has done weird things during interactions and sometimes it feels like the movements came from me, like I controlled them. It’s freaking terrifying. Sometimes I believe I’ve gone psycho. I don’t know who the fuck I am anymore. Maybe I should just accept that I’m a danger to society.
Andi 🤓☝️
- Date posted
- 18w
What is this?
Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. Rn I was not even super annoyed at my neice but I felt a twinge of annoyance since she went up to my face and was yelling at me while I was resting on the bed and I got this image of doing something bad to her and I felt my hand twitch very little. I got nervous and felt relieved when her dad told her to stop screaming for no reason. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering???) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back??? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't know bc what do these twitches mean?, I do know I don't want to ever act out but it's so scary. Recently whenever I feel angry once the argument is over I cry really bad after I'm alone and I pray so i never want or act out. And when the annoyance passes I also feel so guilty and want to stay away. Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent urges or impulses and i also tend to ask chatgpt or here if the anxiety gets so bad 😕
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