b
- Date posted
- 4y
c1604c1604
- Date posted
- 4y
You’re not a monster, the thoughts (which aren’t your own) are the monster. You wont cause any harm, remind yourself you are in control of your actions. Breathe, you can get through this ❤️
bb
- Date posted
- 4y
thank you so much
JojoJojo
- Date posted
- 4y
I feel this way. I feel like my thoughts have now fully convinced me I am. Like I even tell myself in my mind I am. Like if I read anything about pedophiles or see anything about one . I feel like I relate . This does worry me. Also because I’m not in distress about it. Like I don’t want the thoughts in my head and it’s depressing to wake up with the thoughts and feel like I am one but I’m not in distress like before.
JojoJojo
- Date posted
- 4y
Relate in the sense that I feel like I am one. Before I was going back and fourth and like more in denial. I still feel denial and such but not like before. Idk. Maybe I’ve just veered more towards accepting the thoughts as factual. Which I know they say you’re not supposed to do. Idk. I don’t like to think about me feeling this way in the long term or future or I’ll get more depressed. I’m trying to motivate myself to go out to workout somewhat and have a normal routine to occupy my mind from feeling this way. I just feel like it’s always in the back of my mind now even when I’m not really preoccupied with he thoughts.
bb
- Date posted
- 4y
i know exactly how you feel. it is really depressing. i also wake up with a bunch of horrible thoughts not even 5 minutes of me waking up. i know it feels like you're something that you're not, but remember that this won't be forever. it will pass at some point it doesn't have to be soon but we will get through this!! and hopefully you've gotten/will get the help you need. you're not alone.
bb
- Date posted
- 4y
i feel like deep down i'm this monster that's coming out
Related posts
Imnew@this
- Date posted
- 22w
I feel like a monster
(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I honestly feel so overwhelmed by my thoughts—so overwhelmed that I honestly don’t care anymore. I feel like I’m accepting the fact that I’m a monster and have always been a monster. I broke down last night because of these thoughts but I wouldn’t tell anyone if they asked. It wouldn’t make sense to them. This morning, I was watching a body cam video and the person that was arrested was traumadumping about their past SA. I felt like I liked the thoughts and images I got from it. And instead of being disgusted, I let it happen. What does this mean? Does this mean that I’m a monster? Am I a just a monster in disguise?
bradyx20
- Date posted
- 21w
don’t know what’s happening to me
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
Imnew@this
- Date posted
- 21w
I’m a monster. I know it.
(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I’ve been increasingly worried that I’m a zoophile (among other things) and that I’m attracted to my family dog. I love him and I take care of him—I take him out to poop and pee, I play with him, and I feed and water him. But I get nervous when I have to be around him for a long time—I get these thoughts and they just won’t stop. I’ll find myself looking at my dog’s privates and having these strange urges. I feel horrible—like I could’ve done something to him or touched him inappropriately and conveniently don’t remember. I don’t know what to do…
Be a part of the largest OCD Community
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond