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Hey, how are you? I know it is difficult but a step that I think would be helpful for you, and your family, would be to discuss with your parents about your ocd and thoughts. Although your mom may have covid at the time, if there’s something I know about parents, it’s that they care for their children in the end. I think that her and your dad will help you through what you are going through and you can help your mom as well. I’m glad to hear you are doing erp, and know that these intrusive thoughts may not be true. Thoughts are just thoughts!
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my dad doesn’t believe in mental illness and has hurt me mentally and physically because of that so i can’t really talk to him. I will talk to my mom about when she’s feeling better. Thank you for the advice.
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@Rey ⚜️ I’m sorry to hear that. I hope the situation gets better, I can pray for you if you would like as well. I understand that the situation could be difficult to manage on top of your ocd. I’m here if you need to talk!
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I haven’t much advice to offer, but I know there are resources out there as wel that could help you find healthy ways to cope with OCD and suicidal thoughts (the National Suicide hotline being one). Of course the community on here supports you as well! I’ll keep y’a in my thoughts and send some good vibes/extra strength your way. I believe in you! Please take care
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I think a psychiatrist when you can finally get to one will be life changing for you. Medicine has helped me so much in my anxiety, mood swings and rumination .
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Insurance is a good thing to have, I would discourage that. Sometimes you have to leave the parenting up to the parents.
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I wouldn't discourage that*
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I'd also leave diagnosing to the professionals ofcourse we can find peace with knowing we share symptoms but until we get diagnosed we can't thoroughly know. For example for the longest time I thought I had bpd! Everything felt spot on. Then I got to be with a therapist and psychiatrist pretty long term and found instead I have GAD & PTSD, which explains what I was experiencing. Point is, alot overlaps. You deserve to get the care you need and im sorry your mom is facing hardship . As long as you all stay supportive of eachother, you will get through this.
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The problem is that I'm noticing that we don't have the privilege of actually getting a diagnosis. I've notice with things coming in the mail that we're going through some financial problems and my mom told me it may take a really long time to even see a psychiatrist or specialist. I'm very scared of seeing a therapist because of the subtypes I have and what cause them. The only thing I can really do is talk about it to my mom only but I'm sure she won't believe me.
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@Rey ⚜️ I think explaining what you are now to your mom could help her understand more of what you are going through. I wasn’t too excited seeing a therapist either but it got so bad that I had to talk to someone who had experience in the subject and I’m almost positive they have heard what has caused your subtypes etc. I watched videos on YouTube on how to do ERP and it helped me (this was when I wasn’t seeing a therapist or psychiatrist).
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You are not a burden on your mother. You are not a burden in general.
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Personally I don't disclose my subtypes to my family members, I do disclose that I struggle with intense anxiety& shame and or when I felt suicidal thoughts and that sometimes I need help and I needed treatment. that's all they truly need to know and they can help you out that way just as much imo.
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There's online support groups for ocd please join those they are free group therapy.
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- 23w
I have OCD, but my parents don’t understand what I’m going through. All I wanted was for someone to be by my side and support me, but they dismiss my struggles, telling me to "just stop thinking" and that I’m making a big deal out of nothing. When I asked for a new therapist because my current one isn’t helping—she isn’t even an OCD specialist—they became angry and didn't believe I need therapy and instead blame me for everything. My father was so mad, he insist to gave me a knife and kill myself. He threatened to isolate me completely, cutting me off from school, the internet, and everything else. My mom cried and shut me down when I tried to explain my pain. They refuse to listen and my dad said it’s all my fault. That day they threw me outside the house for a night, and called me back in telling me to forget everything and forgive them, but I understood that I will not be able to mention anything about my mental health or seeing an OCD specialist ever again, I am completely alone now. With no financial support, and now I don’t know if I’ll ever get the proper therapy I need. I’m only 15, but it feels like I’ll be trapped in this suffering forever, I feel hopeless, I feel like shit, I am going to suffer forever with no support and help.
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back in october i made my first post about my specific type of ocd, how it mixes in with my day to day and how i “deal” with it. i talked about the starting point, how it gradually got worse, and then how it was going just a few months ago. i always think it’s insane how much can change in just the course of a small to a large amount of time. right now, i honestly feel like garbage. to be quite sincere i really want to give up, i’m barely holding on by a thread. and if i cut that thread, i really doubt anyone would care. i’ve never considered myself to be a suicidal person, and i still don’t consider myself that right now. it just gets to a point where it’s just, a lot to deal with. i don’t really enjoy things a lot nowadays. sure i have good days like everyone does, like today, when i was just enjoying my day without worries. but then it all comes crawling back twice as bad the following days. i take online college so i’m usually just stuck at home most of the time. but, when i do decide to actually go out and leave my house, my ocd just explodes because i have this whole routine i need to do or else i feel like i’ll contaminate wherever i end up going. i’m not going to go really deep into my compulsions because it’s hard enough to live with them, much more having to type them all out in detail. but when i go out my compulsions go from wiping down all my stuff i’m going to use after showering, to washing my clothes/cleaning the washer + dryer. i also have separate things (or two of the same thing) i use specifically in my house, and items i use when going out. such as shampoo/body wash, deodorant, lotion, hair curler, etc. as if that’s not draining enough, i also feel the need to fast a couple days prior to any plan i make because i’ve forced myself to believe i need to feel empty in order to be clean. i’m not sure if that’s my past eating disorder talking, or my ocd, but my brain can’t help but think any food in my house is utterly and completely contaminated. i’m so tired of this feeling, feeling like nothing will ever be clean again. feeling like my ocd is trapped in my childhood home. feeling that wave of diseases rushing through my veins the moment i step foot into what’s supposed to be “home”. and i’m so scared of therapy because what if i do get healed, and then everything comes rushing back the second i step into my room. i’m planning on moving somewhere far from my current house in this next coming year, so sometimes i feel like just waiting it out. but it’s insufferable when going to hangout with someone. i miss my friends, my family, and my partner. it’s crazy to me that i’m dealing with all this at the young age of 18 but, i’m sure lots of people have it way worse. i just want to find a way out, any possible way. but i keep pushing myself deeper and deeper that when i finally find a way, it will no longer exist.
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man these few weeks have been so hard. i’m in the process of getting diagnosed with ocd, im almost positive i have it because everything on here relates to me on an insane level. but im just so scared dude. these thoughts of me harming someone are so scary and im so scared im gonna eventually act on them and i know i never want to but its still so scary. like sometimes when i talk to my mom about it i think in the back of my head “you know you want to” when i dont, and it makes me think or gets me scared that i do. these thoughts literally just happened out of nowhere and it messes me up so bad my literal perspective on life in general is just messed up. like i view life as its more common to be a bad person and its rare/hard to be good. can someone please just pray for me or just wish me better days. i dont even like looking at myself anymore and im scared i give off creepy vibes to myself or others now, this sucks so much
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