- Username
- meow
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Hey, how are you? I know it is difficult but a step that I think would be helpful for you, and your family, would be to discuss with your parents about your ocd and thoughts. Although your mom may have covid at the time, if there’s something I know about parents, it’s that they care for their children in the end. I think that her and your dad will help you through what you are going through and you can help your mom as well. I’m glad to hear you are doing erp, and know that these intrusive thoughts may not be true. Thoughts are just thoughts!
my dad doesn’t believe in mental illness and has hurt me mentally and physically because of that so i can’t really talk to him. I will talk to my mom about when she’s feeling better. Thank you for the advice.
@Rey ⚜️ I’m sorry to hear that. I hope the situation gets better, I can pray for you if you would like as well. I understand that the situation could be difficult to manage on top of your ocd. I’m here if you need to talk!
I haven’t much advice to offer, but I know there are resources out there as wel that could help you find healthy ways to cope with OCD and suicidal thoughts (the National Suicide hotline being one). Of course the community on here supports you as well! I’ll keep y’a in my thoughts and send some good vibes/extra strength your way. I believe in you! Please take care
I think a psychiatrist when you can finally get to one will be life changing for you. Medicine has helped me so much in my anxiety, mood swings and rumination .
Insurance is a good thing to have, I would discourage that. Sometimes you have to leave the parenting up to the parents.
I wouldn't discourage that*
I'd also leave diagnosing to the professionals ofcourse we can find peace with knowing we share symptoms but until we get diagnosed we can't thoroughly know. For example for the longest time I thought I had bpd! Everything felt spot on. Then I got to be with a therapist and psychiatrist pretty long term and found instead I have GAD & PTSD, which explains what I was experiencing. Point is, alot overlaps. You deserve to get the care you need and im sorry your mom is facing hardship . As long as you all stay supportive of eachother, you will get through this.
The problem is that I'm noticing that we don't have the privilege of actually getting a diagnosis. I've notice with things coming in the mail that we're going through some financial problems and my mom told me it may take a really long time to even see a psychiatrist or specialist. I'm very scared of seeing a therapist because of the subtypes I have and what cause them. The only thing I can really do is talk about it to my mom only but I'm sure she won't believe me.
@Rey ⚜️ I think explaining what you are now to your mom could help her understand more of what you are going through. I wasn’t too excited seeing a therapist either but it got so bad that I had to talk to someone who had experience in the subject and I’m almost positive they have heard what has caused your subtypes etc. I watched videos on YouTube on how to do ERP and it helped me (this was when I wasn’t seeing a therapist or psychiatrist).
You are not a burden on your mother. You are not a burden in general.
Personally I don't disclose my subtypes to my family members, I do disclose that I struggle with intense anxiety& shame and or when I felt suicidal thoughts and that sometimes I need help and I needed treatment. that's all they truly need to know and they can help you out that way just as much imo.
There's online support groups for ocd please join those they are free group therapy.
I am currently unemployed, living with my parents and sister again as an adult and my father was abusive and volatile growing up. My sister took a bunch of pills two years ago and was admitted to a hospital for a while. She lived with me for a year, then lived abroad for a year and now we are both back with our parents. I don't think I ever fully recovered from her suicide attempt or from my childhood. I always felt it was my role to be the peace maker and keep the family together even though I am the youngest one in the family and that was a false responsibility I gave myself. My mom has compulsions and my dad is a hoarder so I think my heightened sense of responsibility and genetics could be factors with my ocd. I first showed signs of ocd when I was younger but didn't know that was what it was. I have used smoking weed as a form of stress relief however I never thought of it as self medicating because I would go several months without smoking and then when I was stressed I would smoke on and off for a month or so. I always thought that was due to external factors in my life and never habit forming or addictive. I never even started smoking weed until I was 22 and I am now in my late 20s. When having a stressful time the other week I started smoking again and the next morning it's like it set off this huge panic attack inside of me. All of my ptsd and fears/ obsessions came up to the surface like when you have food poisoning and your body is trying to expell toxins from your body. My death ocd, sexual thoughts ocd, and real ocd and then ptsd have been swirling around in my head nonstop since. Eventually my mom took me to patient first to get something to help me get through the day. They prescribed me attarax and I am taking 2-4 a day as need be since Monday. I also immediately started listening to the ocd stories podcast after googling intrusive thoughts and realized what was going on with me in terms of my fears and obsessions being heightened. My ocd has always bubbled under the surface but I've never had panic attacks and depression like this before. That's when I decided to try NOCD. I am still waiting to have my first session and I am trying to do things every day to give me hope and I am looking forward to my appointment. I feel like this house and my family are a big trigger for me, but I feel stuck and scared especially during covid-19 on how to get out of my situation. I guess I was hoping if anyone could provide me with some words of hope and encourangement in terms of the recovery process and battling multiple problems on top of ocd.
Hi I am new to this app and didnt know what else to turn to. My parents dont understand me at all.. my ocd or anything I go thru. I have almost 2 years clean from drugs, have extreme anxiety, and pretty severe OCD and trich. I am just having a really hard and traumatizing week. Two nights ago my freezer caught on fire( which I didnt even realize was a thing) and there was no one there to help me. I was frozen in shock and I just switched the breakers off until my apartment maintenece could help in the morning. Of course I didnt sleep bc I just kept thinking it was still going to catch fire. The power has gone off 3 times this week.. once while I had a cleaning service here to help me clean my apartment( which is a hard enough exposure for me anyway, to let other people in touching all my things especially during covid). The last thing is I have been worried for a while that there is something physically wrong with me (my dad is a physician and I have physical symptoms to back up this theory). I wont share my symptoms cuz that could take a while but as someone with Ocd you think are all of these symptoms real/fake and related/ unrelated issues that I should or shouldnt worry about. Well my concierge doctor called me with intensive lab results they did as a result of my worrying and it turns out my ANA is pretty high and she wants to refer me to a rheumatologist. ANA being high is the first sign of an autoimmune disease. She was trying to write my fatigue off as sleep apnea but they did find something pretty significant in my bloodwork. Im just really scared. This is too much for me to deal with and worry about. I just feel like shutting down, I cant deal with this all by myself. Any advice or just support? I do have an Ocd therapist, have been thru exposure therapy, and currently take meds for it.
hi everyone, i’ve been using this app for about 2 weeks now, maybe a little more or less than that, i can’t remember exactly when i downloaded it because these past 3 weeks have all been a blur. ive mostly just been lurking and observing other people’s posts and conversations. i’m currently suffering from some bad existential ocd. i haven’t been getting a lot of sleep since lockdown started. i’ve known i’ve had ocd for awhile now but i’ve never gotten any kind of help for it. i don’t talk about my problems to anyone and keep all my thoughts bottled up until i get over things on my own. but every time i go through a phase like this it gets worse each time it comes back. i haven’t felt like this in over 3 years and i thought i was done a finally free but now it feels like my life is over. i had a doctor’s appointment this past Tuesday and i’m going to be getting counseling (i’m not sure if there’s a difference between counseling and therapy, the word my doctor used specifically was counseling. she might have just said that but meant therapy or maybe there is a difference im not sure) but i don’t see the point. everyone tells me to ‘embrace the uncertainty’ but i don’t know how i can go on living happily with the possibility of my worst fears being true. i won’t say what they are in this post but if you’re curious I’ll tell you. i put a trigger warning just in case i get into the conversation of what exactly my worst fears are with anyone and i don’t want to trigger anyone who’s also dealing with the same problems as me. i just thought, in case im wrong-which i hope i am-that it wouldn’t hurt to talk it out right now. my mom and dad don’t fully understand and i don’t want to scare them and it might be a few more weeks before i start counseling.
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