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Hey, how are you? I know it is difficult but a step that I think would be helpful for you, and your family, would be to discuss with your parents about your ocd and thoughts. Although your mom may have covid at the time, if there’s something I know about parents, it’s that they care for their children in the end. I think that her and your dad will help you through what you are going through and you can help your mom as well. I’m glad to hear you are doing erp, and know that these intrusive thoughts may not be true. Thoughts are just thoughts!
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my dad doesn’t believe in mental illness and has hurt me mentally and physically because of that so i can’t really talk to him. I will talk to my mom about when she’s feeling better. Thank you for the advice.
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@Rey ⚜️ I’m sorry to hear that. I hope the situation gets better, I can pray for you if you would like as well. I understand that the situation could be difficult to manage on top of your ocd. I’m here if you need to talk!
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I haven’t much advice to offer, but I know there are resources out there as wel that could help you find healthy ways to cope with OCD and suicidal thoughts (the National Suicide hotline being one). Of course the community on here supports you as well! I’ll keep y’a in my thoughts and send some good vibes/extra strength your way. I believe in you! Please take care
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I think a psychiatrist when you can finally get to one will be life changing for you. Medicine has helped me so much in my anxiety, mood swings and rumination .
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Insurance is a good thing to have, I would discourage that. Sometimes you have to leave the parenting up to the parents.
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I wouldn't discourage that*
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I'd also leave diagnosing to the professionals ofcourse we can find peace with knowing we share symptoms but until we get diagnosed we can't thoroughly know. For example for the longest time I thought I had bpd! Everything felt spot on. Then I got to be with a therapist and psychiatrist pretty long term and found instead I have GAD & PTSD, which explains what I was experiencing. Point is, alot overlaps. You deserve to get the care you need and im sorry your mom is facing hardship . As long as you all stay supportive of eachother, you will get through this.
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The problem is that I'm noticing that we don't have the privilege of actually getting a diagnosis. I've notice with things coming in the mail that we're going through some financial problems and my mom told me it may take a really long time to even see a psychiatrist or specialist. I'm very scared of seeing a therapist because of the subtypes I have and what cause them. The only thing I can really do is talk about it to my mom only but I'm sure she won't believe me.
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@Rey ⚜️ I think explaining what you are now to your mom could help her understand more of what you are going through. I wasn’t too excited seeing a therapist either but it got so bad that I had to talk to someone who had experience in the subject and I’m almost positive they have heard what has caused your subtypes etc. I watched videos on YouTube on how to do ERP and it helped me (this was when I wasn’t seeing a therapist or psychiatrist).
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You are not a burden on your mother. You are not a burden in general.
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Personally I don't disclose my subtypes to my family members, I do disclose that I struggle with intense anxiety& shame and or when I felt suicidal thoughts and that sometimes I need help and I needed treatment. that's all they truly need to know and they can help you out that way just as much imo.
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There's online support groups for ocd please join those they are free group therapy.
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Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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i’ve been dealing with this “thing” since i was 15. (i’m 23 now) if i have a bad memory that i have done when i was really young or just an intrusive thought i feel like i need to tell my mom or boyfriend. it’s been on and off ever since but since January hit it’s been an everyday thing about the littlest things. mostly about my relationship. an example is i was talking to someone random at my job and we were talking about taxes and when im in deep thought or just thinking i do a thing where i bite my lip (not in the sexual way) and i had a thought when it happened “was that sexual?” and i felt like i did something wrong and i went for a while thinking that until i told my boyfriend about it. or like my ex’s face has popped up in my head in the most inappropriate times and i feel the need that i have to tell him. (my ex was not a good person) i feel like im a prisoner in my head everyday, trying to justify thoughts or remind myself that its just a thought. i didnt know that this was or could be a form of ocd. it runs in my family but i’ve just never considered it being this. i always called it anxiety or depression but i always felt like it is more than that.
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I cant afford therapy which is why i’m not diagnosed with ocd. The first time i had heard what ocd was truly abt was 6 years ago when i overthinking my sexual identity and it fit. Additionally, i struggle with debilitating health anxiety and when i was in a rlt i was extremely anxious that i might not love my partner. This is the third year i experience distress around my sexuality but this year it feels real. And it could also explain my rlt anxiety. Comphet is a concept that really scares me. I dont want to be with a girl. I would rather die than discover i was lesbian. I cant accept uncertainty cz i dont want to be homosexual. Chat GPT told me it wasnt ocd + the thoughts dont distress me anymore. I experience 3 intense weeks of anxiety prior to now. Maybe its internalized homophobia. Maybe its comphet. I do find women to be attractive but i dont wanna be with them. Maybe i’m in denial. Idk anything anymore. I’m remembering times where i would find an actress attractive and try to shift my focus towards the man cz it would make me anxious. I’m not well at all.
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