holley
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Susan4444Susan4444
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When I first had HOCD I went to a sex therapist cause I had no idea it was OCD and I was balling because I thought I had to break up with my boyfriend that I loved because of female fantasies. He told me two really helpful things... one that I had ocd (I’m so thankful he knew about pure o) and then he was like “who cares of you need to fantasize a little bit about something other than your boyfriend to put you over the edge” (which was good response to an ocd person haha). Then he said that sexuality is a kelediscope not a scale, which for some reason helps me a lot to think about it like that. Anyway, it didn’t make the ocd go away, I had to do ERP, but it was just something that shaped the way I view sexuality that had helped me.
holleyholley
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do you identify as straight? and if you don’t mind me asking what do you mean by female fantasies?
Susan4444Susan4444
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@holley I try not to label myself but I have only ever wanted to date a man. I mean like lesbian fantasies.
holleyholley
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@Susan4444 i feel the same and i never thought that someone else would have the same fantasies as me it’s what i mostly fantasize about which concerns me.
holleyholley
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my fantasies always turn out a little gay. literally always.
strawberry ice creamstrawberry i...
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wdym?
holleyholley
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@strawberry ice cream i usually fantasize about a threesome FFM with my boyfriend i don’t sit there and just fantasize about him exclusively
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@holley ohh now I understand lol
holleyholley
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@strawberry ice cream wdym??
missblueskymissbluesky
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It sounds like you might be a bit bisexual. Does that thought bother you?
holleyholley
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why would you say that omgggg yes it bothers me
missblueskymissbluesky
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@holley I’m so sorry I didn’t mean to trigger you!!!!
holleyholley
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@missbluesky that made my heart drop so fast i wouldn’t ever date a girl ever and i know you didn’t mean to trigger me but still now i just feel like i’m different and weird i think i need to get off of nocd everyone thinks i’m bisexual
missblueskymissbluesky
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@holley I think I’ve read somewhere that being bisexual doesn’t mean you’d date a girl, it just means you find them sexually attractive. I’m really sorry that I triggered you.
holleyholley
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@missbluesky i understand that but i think that i find girls sexually attractive in porn or whatever i don’t know if i would actually do anything with one i’m unsure of my sexuality and i find a lot of comfort with just not knowing the uncertainty. there’s loads of straight girls i know that are a little sexually attracted to women. i don’t think it’s necessary to label every simple little feeling because if that were the case a lot of straight women would be bisexual.
holleyholley
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@holley i would also like to mention that i have bpd so i’ve never been confident in my sexuality even before hocd my ideas and perception of life is ALWAYS changing so that added on to ocd makes me a very confused person lol. i thought i wanted to be a nurse 2 months ago and now i want to be a makeup artist. i don’t have a stable sense of self
frog67frog67
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@holley why does it bother you? there’s nothing wrong with it. sexuality is very complex anyway, you don’t have to label whatever you are. but it’s offensive to suggest that there’s something bad about being bisexual/homosexual
holleyholley
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@liana2 where did i imply that?
frog67frog67
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@holley sorry, must’ve misunderstood you!! i just wanted to say that its okay, whatever you may be, there’s no reason to feel horrible if you’re considering you might be bi. i also have sexuality OCD so i get that its really stressful but it doesnt make you a bad person, and if it turns out you are LGBT thats perfectly fine
holleyholley
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@frog67 i just don’t want to be apart of the lgbtq community i just don’t think i belong and i’m not considering that label either really
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