This is something that bothers me a lot a couple of months ago someone said on some random chat site that I look gay. And not just one person 2 people 😔

❗️I spend some time on this forum called „emptyclosets“ where gay people can come out and search for help. And it was a big, big mistake. When I searched for HOCD in this forum I found so much people there who don‘t believe that something like „HOCD“ exists and that our symptoms are the typical signs of denying. This hit me just so hard and triggered me so, so much. My biggest fear is that it isn’t actually HOCD.

Hii. So this is kind of a weird thing but bear with me. I know when people come out, others will say "oh we've known" or like "I'm not surprised" and that's definitely an insensitive thing to say but I fear that my friends/peers talk about me and think I give off bi/lesbian energy but don't tell me. Like if my SOOCD isn't real and I came out one day, would people say that? I'm just afraid that my friends talk behind my back about me in that way and so I go the extra mile to avoid those LGBTQ+ stereotypes whatever that may be. Even stupid shit like having a nose piercing or clear phone case etc. My OCD clings onto that thought and so I'm always conscious in my head about not trying to give off that energy based off how I present myself and it's so exhausting like I wish I could just wear whatever without being like "oh I saw a tik tok one time that says this type of shirt is a gay thing" or whatever. I am not in any way homophobic as I'm an ally of the LGBTQ+ community but my OCD just drives me crazy and because of that I have this constant fear of being perceived as bi/lesbian. Sorry this was long and all over the place LMAO but if anyone can relate/ has advice it would be so appreciated because I honestly just feel so alone

You ever listen to a recording of yourself and think wow do I actually sound sort of girly (or manly if you’re a woman)? And maybe everyone thinks so but just doesn’t want to tell me?? (Also I say the word “like” a lot which rn feels like it could point to sounding effeminate, idk.) I know it’s super shallow but geez stuff like this gets to me sometimes