hate_ocd.123
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ZOmeWiZOmeWi
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- 4y
When I first got HOCD and was undiagnosed I worked in health care. I had to see all bits up and close . It didn’t trigger me massively but definitely led to daily compulsions. Even in one of my better phases I had to remove staples from someone’s nipple and felt hella uncomfortabl
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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- 4y
Oof i work in healthcare (pt technician) and omg i literally want to die sometimes with how touchy i have to be with patients and have to help them w/ moving Especially the women, it freaks me out so badly
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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- 4y
@Ope.0 Me too:( I always use the finger heart monitor to track my anxiety and make sure i actually feel anxiety at the thoughts / people so i know its real and not just in my head🤣
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