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stop asking whether or not its denial. it will only make the ocd worse and wont get you anywhere. accept the possibility that it could or could not be. asking strangers on the internet whether or not every single thing you do is a sign of denial is a compulsion
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Fair enough. Do you think this is a compulsion that I should stop, thoigh? The exaggerating attraction?
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@missbluesky oh yes. i did the exact same thing with my friends so i completely get you. what i noticed was the more exaggerated it, the more my attraction to men would diminish cause i was saying a bunch of things i didnt mean and my ocd used that against me. whenever i see a cute guy i just say oh he is really good looking. i dont do anything else. this slowly helped my attraction to come back. also when you feel attraction dont automatically use it as proof that you are straight. ocd doesnt work on logic and it will make you doubt it and use it against you. lmk if you need anymore help.
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idk what this persons intention is to reply with those things but its a good exposure! sit with the anxiety that what they are saying could be true but it could also be complete bs when it comes to you. sitting with the uncertainty of things is what is going to help you recover
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I am so, so scared right now.
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@missbluesky ok so i saw what they just posted and they clearly don’t understand our theme even though they have it listed on their profile. SOOCD isnt about the fear of being gay, its about the fear of losing self identity. nobody can tell you what sexuality you are so just move on to what you are doing. take what they said and sit with the anxiety. you may or may not be gay. let your body feel so that it can heal. please lmk if you need absolutely anything
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@ocdomi I feel like I’m going to die
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@missbluesky please breathe. that person clearly doesnt know shit. they are a troll that popped up out of nowhere thinking that they are the supreme. remember what i told you and accept the uncertainty. they dont know you. they dont have ANY right to tell you your sexuality. you are the only person anle to determine that. they said that so-ocd is just internalized homophobia. if that were true then why would there be so many recovery stories?? try and distract yourself from what they said. accepting that what they said could or could not be true will help you tremendously. please lmk that you are ok
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- 25w
Anyone else with HOCD get thoughts of like "people in denial try to distract themselves" or anything along those lines when just trying to move on from the thoughts. Having a pretty bad episode this morning at least anxiety wise.
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it feels like i accepted being gay and thats part of who i am but i still feel that tension and fake attraction whenever i see a man and i feel like i could be able to have a sexual intercourse with a man even though i dont want it is it still hocd or just denial? like i am feeling okey but there is still that doubt that how can i know that im not gay if i dont get disgusted by gay things or gay personality traits and at the same time i want to feel normal again like before
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I’m struggling badly. I did something about a month ago which I now realize was probably testing, but what scares me is I feel like I liked it, which is horrifying. What’s even worse though, is after I did it, I was able to brush it off quickly and not be too bothered by it, as I was still very anxious on other thoughts I was experiencing. Now those thoughts are meaningless and THIS is what’s causing tremendous anxiety, but the fact that I didn’t feel anxiety about it after I did it seals the deal for me. I mean, did feel anxious and guilty after I did it, but I was able to dismiss it somewhat quickly, and I remember that memory came up a couple of times within the month after I did it but like I said, it hasn’t too hard to dismiss it. I really feel like it’s denial. The fact that I wasn’t that anxious about it and tried to justify it/dismiss it HAS to mean it’s been denial all this time, there just no way this is OCD :( Right now I’m anxious about the fact that I might’ve liked it AND the fact that I wasn’t anxious about it for a while. It is really just a torment to ruminate on, and I would never do that thing again, but the fact that I did it and felt like I liked it is beyond terrifying. I feel like I have proof now, I’m trying to figure out why I did it and what it meant, and why I wasn’t super anxious the following weeks after, I mean it WAS uncomfortable to think back on, but I feel like the fact I wasn’t super anxious about it means I was in denial or repressing my true self. I am so so scared. I’ve been worried about this for the past week and a half :( (This is all centered on the same theme btw.)
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