What do I do if it all feels real? It doesn’t feel like OCD anymore but I don’t want it to be true? I don’t feel the same it’s like I’ve changed and like I want it.

I literally just had this right now! But don't worry ocd can turn to feelings and even urges just to make you question yourself.

Do nothing! Keep living your life, keep doing the normal things you need and have to do and stop giving ocd the attention that it wants. The thoughts will be there, it’s up to you to do erp and stop reacting to them