Anyone else get scared they don’t like the sex they like for the right reason? For me: I fear I don’t actually like men, I just think I like them because I am male-validation oriented / men are the default to be attracted to as I’m a woman etc

Yeah this a really common really shitty side effect of SO OCD :(

@ta Yeah defenitly! What helps is to remind myself that the world is not as black and white as people try to make it. Just because some people had the experience of this being comphet, doesn‘t mean that I‘m also experiencing it. There a million other reasons why I like male attention 😅 And yes I have false attraction and I hate it. Basically it always happens when I find another woman pretty or nice or when they wear a cool outfit

@ta I get it with manly looking women and I hate it!

@ta I'm a woman

@ta I was chatting with a friend (about boys we liked ironically) when I unintentionally glanced down at her groin. I has a sensation in between my legs that lasted about a second then as a joke I asked myself if that's what gay people experience then I suddenly panicked!! What if I had suddenly turned gay? It all spiralled from that.

@ta Sometimes it does and it is extremly scary. Because with manly looking women my ocd can be even more creative by giving me scenarios I would actually enjoy with a man but insertes the Woman instead if you know what I mean 🙈

@Maraki Since then I have these false attractions to male looking women, some of them are not even good looking. It's like my brain spots them before my eyes even see them. Then I get this strong attraction feeling. I know it's crazy but in the moment it feels real and overwhelms me with panic and I can't think of anything else.

@ta I was 19 when is started. I am in my 40s now and I am generally really well after treatment and meds. The only remaining trigger is seeing masculine looking women sometimes and that can bother me

@ta Being able to appreciate someone is attractive isn't the same as being sexually attracted to them. Unfortunately OCD doesn't allow the sufferer to tell the difference (thus the the false attraction messages you get) and that's what can cause the panic, upset and confusion.

@ta Once you are able to calm yourself and accept that your brain thinks all sorts of thoughts and our bodies create all sorts of sensations and many of them don't mean anything significant about us, you will be more in-line with the way non OCD sufferers think and feel. Then you will be able to tell the difference.