Hi, I am new here. I have been dealing with HOCD since 1.5 years now. It all began in February 2020 and now is July 2021. I was completely unaware of the term OCD before recently I came across this illness. I have been through little torture. As long as I remember I have been completely straight. I was all the time attracted to guys I have even been into two relationships. It actually got better but recently while doing research on HOCD I came across the term TOCD which got triggered. I am a girl and have always been proud of it but since a few weeks I have this constant fear in my chest that I am not. I practice ERP. I avoid my compulsions as much as possible and try to sit with anxiety but the main problem I am facing right now is my confused self-image I have lost all the confidence in myself, it's like I don't even know myself at this moment, like what am I who am I. My anxiety is better but please someone tell me if I'll ever get my girly confidence back and including my lost attraction to men? It feels soooo real at this point.