yrstol
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Elizabethpeter11Elizabethpet...
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I struggle with this as well. I am a Christian and sometimes my OCD gets so bad I can't bring myself to read the Bible. I often feel bad about this but I try to focus on praying (non compluslively if that makes sense about some of these struggles and OCD in general) or reading very little like you mentioned of some of the less triggering parts. I focus on some of my favorite psalms or verses about the promises of God
holleyholley
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and then you have people telling you that since you’re avoiding parts of the bible that that’s a sin or at least that’s what happened to me i just can’t handle christianity with having this subtype
Elizabethpeter11Elizabethpet...
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@holley I'm sorry that happened to you. The other Christians in my life have been compassionate and I believe God is too. I do not intend to avoid forever and think it would be helpful if I sought treatment with ERP. I have a Christian friend as well that has the same issues I do. It's a lot more common than I had originally thought and prevalent in all religions. I also have had other subtypes of OCD including harm contamination and responsibility. I am currently taking medication as well.
holleyholley
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@Elizabethpeter11 must be nice to not be judged. it’s what drove me away
lmilmi
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@holley I understand holley. The misunderstanding and judgment pretty much left be in a devestated and paranoid state. I kind of feel like i struggle with PTSD just from the environment i have been in since developing OCD
Elizabethpeter11Elizabethpet...
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@holley They should be so compassionate. But it also depends on the beliefs of the church as well surrounding mental health. OCD isn't a well known mental health struggle even though many early church figures struggled with it. I'm lucky I go to a church where mental health is taken seriously and isn't automatically dismissed
yrstol yrstol
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@holley Hey Holley I get where your coming from and I don’t mean to be annoying but In some way the way that Christians treat you shouldn’t effect your belief in Christ. And again I say this in love. Not trying to be nosey or rude.
yrstol yrstol
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@yrstol Your belief should be dependent on if the claims of Christ are true. Thanks
lmilmi
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I beleive in God too, but i get overwhelmed by the interpretations and perceptions of others that it increases my obsessive thinking/ruminating. What has helped me latley is just remembering that its my anxiety that is fueling the amount of thoughts. I look for ways to alleviate my anxiety and then my thoughts do not become so intense.
Elizabethpeter11Elizabethpet...
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I also relate to being overwhelmed by the many interpretations of others. I love your suggestion though of trying to remind yourself that anxiety is what is fueling the race of thoughts. It has helped me a bit too
yrstol yrstol
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Like for example I’ll read “ you can’t serve two masters and I ruminate like maybe I am serving music more than God”
holleyholley
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that’s why i left christianity because my religious ocd got so bad i also have rocd
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