Ok I need to rant. I’m a believer in Jesus. But I also have ocd and specifically ROCD so I’ve really been going through it for some time. My current thing is like - If I listen to sermons or read the Bible they just add to my obsessions and trigger anxiety so I’ve been just trying to focus on writing music cause it doesn’t give me anxiety and I think I am on earth partially to write music. Anyways now I feel like a sinner / not Christian or something because it’s like I don’t listen to sermons and I only read like a little of the Bible daily. So I wonder does anybody have a simeler experience and any advice? Thanks.

and then you have people telling you that since you’re avoiding parts of the bible that that’s a sin or at least that’s what happened to me i just can’t handle christianity with having this subtype

@holley I'm sorry that happened to you. The other Christians in my life have been compassionate and I believe God is too. I do not intend to avoid forever and think it would be helpful if I sought treatment with ERP. I have a Christian friend as well that has the same issues I do. It's a lot more common than I had originally thought and prevalent in all religions. I also have had other subtypes of OCD including harm contamination and responsibility. I am currently taking medication as well.

@Elizabethpeter11 must be nice to not be judged. it’s what drove me away

@holley I understand holley. The misunderstanding and judgment pretty much left be in a devestated and paranoid state. I kind of feel like i struggle with PTSD just from the environment i have been in since developing OCD

@holley They should be so compassionate. But it also depends on the beliefs of the church as well surrounding mental health. OCD isn't a well known mental health struggle even though many early church figures struggled with it. I'm lucky I go to a church where mental health is taken seriously and isn't automatically dismissed

@holley Hey Holley I get where your coming from and I don’t mean to be annoying but In some way the way that Christians treat you shouldn’t effect your belief in Christ. And again I say this in love. Not trying to be nosey or rude.

@yrstol Your belief should be dependent on if the claims of Christ are true. Thanks

I also relate to being overwhelmed by the many interpretations of others. I love your suggestion though of trying to remind yourself that anxiety is what is fueling the race of thoughts. It has helped me a bit too