Are there any ways that I can make sure that I am actually straight? I am not homophobic but I just hate it when I have the gay thoughts in my head. It is just not me. I feel like I am losing myself. I cried a lot. I was scared and depressed. Please help me.

Well say you are straight, most of us with OCD will never know that. Why? Because we just don’t allow ourselves to know, everytime we get an answer it just gets gets twisted and then we are back to square one. There’s no way to know, because you can’t be sure of yourself anymore, but that’s not because you are what you are fearing it’s because you amplified the fear in your head and you are obsessing over it. But as for your question, that’s seeking reassurance. There’s no way to know but I can tell you one thing and that thing is that you just did a compulsion by asking that question. Just a warning for the future. I don’t know how long you have had this, but don’t do any research, if you have a question regarding OCD ask it here. A lot of malicious people don’t take us seriously and a lot of people trigger others on purpose but above all else you are probably hyper aware and almost everything can be a trigger in that kind of state. You have to accept the uncertainty, that’s the key to OCD. If all else fails then that’s the only way. And hopefully one day you forget all about it, or become more sure of yourself. But it’s really hard to do it alone, we are here to support you on this app but talk therapy doesn’t help in the long run you have to go about fixing this with therapy, preferably with a therapist but you can also go at it alone.

You “making sure”, is basically looking for reassurance. With OCD, there may be certain things that provide you relief, but it doesn’t last forever. OCD is never completely satisfied with an answer. It’s best to accept the uncertainty.