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I relate to this very much. However my therapist right now has me working on saying “thank you brain for thinking of this but there is no problem that needs to be solved” ❤️
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@Ope.0 Arousal does not determine orientation. You can be aroused by a tree. Doesn’t mean you want to be with a tree. However, I understand with my whole heart how it feels. We have talked about this before, women erotic has turned me on. Seeing a man naked - doesnt. I need emotion and personality, etc. This has been the hardest part of my OCD. All of this “proof” is eating me alive.
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@Ope.0 Even if there was a test our OCD would still doubt it .
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@Ope.0 i relate to you both a lot! it’s nice to know we’re together in this
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@garden Do you considered yourself bisexual?!
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@OCD33 hmmm i don’t think so. i mostly ‘came out’ to my friends to expose myself to the fear. if i am bisexual, that’s fine. i don’t think i really care as long as i still like guys. my biggest worry is losing my attraction to men
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@OCD33 This is also the hardest part for me :-(. Are u still struggling with ocd? Could we talk?
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I remember you from the last time I was having a hard time with this theme, about 8 months ago. You used to fear being bisexual, right?
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hahaha yes. i thought i was getting through this but clearly it comes back every now and again. that’s okay. it’s funny though; i don’t fear being bisexual anymore as long as i still like guys! i think i fear being 100% a lesbian.
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@garden I’m glad you don’t fear it anymore! I’m still really scared of it. The idea of being anything other than straight really freaks me out, but female erotica turns me on. I don’t know what to do.
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@missbluesky it really shakes up your whole identity when obsessing and fearing about sexuality so i’m sorry you feel this way. i totally get it. and female erotica is just inevitably very sexual. i truly don’t believe it says all that much about a persons sexuality. but i still struggle with it myself!
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I have watched lesbian porn too. Are u still struggling with ocd? Could we talk?
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hi i’m a lesbian! and i have known im a lesbian for a really long time and i have a sweet girlfriend of 1 year. it all started when i saw this masc lesbian come out as straight, after that i had my guy friend over and he’s a sweet guy and he was flirting with me (he didn’t know i was gay) im not sure but i panicked and my brain froze and i was like “do i like him”, ever since my brain has been over worked 24/7 for 2 months now and it’s spiralling constantly. im trying to control it but all these thoughts are so disgusting and my brain tries to put him and i in scenarios that make me uncomfortable and i feel panic and i hate it. i have always been comfortable being a lesbian and i still am comfortable as a lesbian, but i dislike these thoughts i have about him and men and i want it to be over. i do not want to experiment with men even tho my brain is telling me i do, i find it disgusting and i dread it, i have a sweet girlfriend and i want to be with her forever, i do not imagine anything with any men and i hate these thoughts. im scared of becoming bisexual/straight one day and i hate hearing sexuality is fluid. its a whole mix of comphet and so-ocd
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I’ve been dealing with SOOCD for over a year now, and I have been having a very hard day today. I feel like I just need someone to talk too, my whole life I’ve always had girl crushes and always wanted to be romantic with women . Ever since I posted this picture on instagram and one person said I looked “zesty” in it , which is when I started obsessing about being gay . I feel like I put so much meaning to these thoughts where now I’m always checking how I feeling around men. I had a really bad porn addiction for a long time and bad anxiety which fucked up my sex drive. I feel like I doubt if I’m attracted to women when I know I am , but the doubt is so overbearing where I start to believe it . I never was interested in men sexually, and my ocd makes me feel like I like the thoughts even though I feel no pleasure out of it. I feel like I lost who I am as a person . It feels like I don’t even know what my sexuality is and it’s really upsetting to me . I meant this girl the other day and she is the most beautiful woman I’ve ever met and I just feel like ocd is getting in the way😭😭😭 please any advice or comments
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- 14w
Hello everyone, I just wanted to share a part of my journey that I’m struggling with right now. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd and while this is not my first subtype, ROCD and so ocd have definitely been the ones I’ve been struggling with the most. For context I have a boyfriend who I love very much and am terrified of loosing. That’s probably what ocd latched onto. The so-ocd especially is tricky because I’ve come to acknowledge that I am bisexual. Don’t worry I didn’t “discover” this through ocd, I’ve always known and it’s been in the back of my mind way before ocd, I had just never really directly acknowledged it because romantically I just always leaned towards men. The thing my ocd latched onto is “what if you are actually a lesbian and don’t know it yet and will have to leave your partner or are lying to your partner or end up leading him on” The thing is, I don’t have much experience with women except kissing my female best friend once, which didn’t feel special or made me have romantic feelings for her. I’ve always seeked men more actively than women and didn’t feel like I was gonna miss out if I get into a serious relationship with a man before having had more experience. I just know that I can be sexually attracted to women as well. But now that I’m in this beautiful relationship I’m terrified of getting it wrong or having missed something about myself or being scared that I’m actually a lesbian and have been lying to myself all along. I’m not seeking reassurance, just wanting to share and maybe someone else is going through something similar? If so I’d be so grateful to know I’m not alone. I love my boyfriend dearly and i really hope we will work out in the long run.
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