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girll I think ab this ALL THE FREAKING TIME LOL, I thought i was going crazy! but like maybe it’s a “side effect “ of hocd? 🤷♀️
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I’m so glad someone else undestands it. I’m having such a bad moment right now so it’s so nice to see you relate. I have no idea if it’s a side effect. I’ve only seen 1 person say something similar on a forum a few years ago. She wrote that she started having thoughts like why do men even like women and it made her feel misogynistic and I was like YES me too
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@b13 How long have you suffered with this theme?
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@b13 If you don’t mind me asking
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@b13 I’m having a rough time too :(( I feel like I’ll never be able to like men again. And I also doubt if I actually liked men at all. My worst fear rn is to not be attracted to guys at all ;(
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@missbluesky 6 and a half years if it’s really OCD. I worry it’s not because I don’t have other themes (though sometimes I start worrying about gender) and because I’ve not been diagnosed because I’m too scared to talk about it.
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@b13 I’ve stuffed for 7.5!! Off and on. Has yours been like that too?
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@strawberry ice cream That’s my problem right now, I’m doubting if I ever liked a boy. (Typing that out the word boy gave me anxiety and I don’t know why). I just tried admitting to myself that I’m a lesbian and I felt so much anxiety and started crying but then I started worrying ‘what if the anxiety and the crying is because deep down I know it’s true’. But I still don’t know if it’s true. And now it’s been about 20 minutes and I’ve calmed down im thinking where’s the anxiety gone, like have I accepted it now? I don’t know what’s going on.
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@b13 I was 12 when it started 😭
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@missbluesky Yes 100%. I’ve had good times and bad times. My absolute worst time was exactly 2 years ago where I started self harming and considering suicide and I haven’t had a time as bad since then but it definitely comes and goes.
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@missbluesky I was 15, now almost 22.
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@b13 I literally relate to u so so much. This illness is so scary 😣
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@strawberry ice cream It’s so confusing, I literally just need to know but it’s like I can’t trust myself. And I really worry that the fact that it’s been so long and the fact that I can’t stop thinking about it means something. And also why this theme? Why don’t I have other themes, surely that must mean it’s because there’s something I need to figure out about my sexuality. It’s so frustrating and upsetting
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@b13 I literally have never related to something more. I worry especially because it started SO young for me.
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@missbluesky I worry about that too. Like ‘15 seems like the age people would discover this about themselves so that must’ve been what happened’
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@b13 Literally me except being 12
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@missbluesky I was 12 too
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So i started to feel like a lesbian again and that i have to be one. I dont want to be one. I just dont. But being straight feel like a lie now. I question my whole life, my feelings and everything. The biggest indicator of this must be that i will be slowly 21 year old and ive never dated anyone and i dont really find anyone attractive and i dont even know if i truly was attracted to someone and im scared of relationships i might have trauma or have anxious avoidant attachment. Help me. I do feel lost. Really lost. I dont know who am I anymore. I feel like that i must have been gay my whole life now. I feel like an alien. I sometimes feel like 2 people are living inside of me.😞😞😞
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Sort of a rant that probably sounds stupid and I’m kind of seeking reassurance… I’m still a relatively young teenager so I know I’ve got time to work all this out but I’m really confused about my sexuality. (I’m a girl) I’ve never been in a relationship (I don’t know if I want to be which is why I’m writing this) and sometimes I feel like I’ve never really had a crush and I just convinced myself that I did because I wanted to feel normal… but then maybe that’s false memory ocd??? I don’t really want to be in a long term relationship with a guy and idk about girls but idk if that’s just cos of my age??? Some days I hate the idea of ever dating, marrying or doing anything sexual. Other days I wish my mental / physical health was better so I could date someone! Everything I feel goes up and down a lot and idk why!? I have bad sexual intrusive thoughts that make me unsure whether anything that I think is real and my parents recently split up after not getting along for a few years. I don’t know if it’s my age, my ocd, my parents bad relationship, my sexuality (am I attracted to guys, girls? Am I ace!!!!???) Or something else but I have no idea who I am and I KNOW I’m young and have time but some other perspectives might help???? Can I ever be in a relationship if I have ocd like this? Also I’m really struggling not to compulsively seek reassurance and I don’t know who to talk to about all this irl I know I probably shouldn’t share this with random strangers but also idek if I care anymore 😭
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I know I'm not attracted to children, there's no proof I am and no indication that I am. Yet why do I still get these sexual intrusive thoughts? Why do I still feel so uncomfortable? Why do I feel disgusting, distressed and confused when I get them? Why do I get them in the first place yet I still don't feel anxious enough? I'm really confused about this. I'm not going to do anything to a child or think of a child that way yet at the same time It gets all over in my mind. Is it just me like uncovering some attraction to children that was buried and where would it even come from I've always been attracted to men that are older than me (not like grandpas or something but 1-6 years older) so why the hell am I even getting these thoughts now? I'm genuinely so confused and I don't want this to happen. It feels I'm betraying everyone especially myself
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