Does anyone ever get so fed up and confused that they get so confused with the idea of attraction? Like I’m sitting here thinking why are people even attracted to people? Why are my mum and dad attracted to each other? How do men like women and women like men and whatever else? I don’t know why my thoughts go like this sometimes.

I’m so glad someone else undestands it. I’m having such a bad moment right now so it’s so nice to see you relate. I have no idea if it’s a side effect. I’ve only seen 1 person say something similar on a forum a few years ago. She wrote that she started having thoughts like why do men even like women and it made her feel misogynistic and I was like YES me too

@b13 How long have you suffered with this theme?

@b13 If you don’t mind me asking

@b13 I’m having a rough time too :(( I feel like I’ll never be able to like men again. And I also doubt if I actually liked men at all. My worst fear rn is to not be attracted to guys at all ;(

@missbluesky 6 and a half years if it’s really OCD. I worry it’s not because I don’t have other themes (though sometimes I start worrying about gender) and because I’ve not been diagnosed because I’m too scared to talk about it.

@b13 I’ve stuffed for 7.5!! Off and on. Has yours been like that too?

@strawberry ice cream That’s my problem right now, I’m doubting if I ever liked a boy. (Typing that out the word boy gave me anxiety and I don’t know why). I just tried admitting to myself that I’m a lesbian and I felt so much anxiety and started crying but then I started worrying ‘what if the anxiety and the crying is because deep down I know it’s true’. But I still don’t know if it’s true. And now it’s been about 20 minutes and I’ve calmed down im thinking where’s the anxiety gone, like have I accepted it now? I don’t know what’s going on.

@b13 I was 12 when it started 😭

@missbluesky Yes 100%. I’ve had good times and bad times. My absolute worst time was exactly 2 years ago where I started self harming and considering suicide and I haven’t had a time as bad since then but it definitely comes and goes.

@missbluesky I was 15, now almost 22.

@b13 I literally relate to u so so much. This illness is so scary 😣

@strawberry ice cream It’s so confusing, I literally just need to know but it’s like I can’t trust myself. And I really worry that the fact that it’s been so long and the fact that I can’t stop thinking about it means something. And also why this theme? Why don’t I have other themes, surely that must mean it’s because there’s something I need to figure out about my sexuality. It’s so frustrating and upsetting

@b13 I literally have never related to something more. I worry especially because it started SO young for me.

@missbluesky I worry about that too. Like ‘15 seems like the age people would discover this about themselves so that must’ve been what happened’

@b13 Literally me except being 12

@missbluesky I was 12 too