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The OCD is provoking that on you. The OCD is like a virus that affects your computer and functions ( feelings, thoughts,sexual response etc). I mean it affects the way your brain is programming to work. So what the REP tries to reprogramming your brain by yourself.
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It just feels so real and I want to try erp but I’m scared I’ll figure out I’m actually homosexual if I try doing it
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Here is the link to a youtube video about groinal responses https://youtu.be/E7n1ZrJ_7-0
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Thanks bro I appreciate it
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@Jish03 Watch all of his videos bro. Ima send you another YouTube channel as well
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We all struggling bro im like on the same boat as you i cant even see my fucking friends, haven't felt alive, haven't felt like myself, haven't been wildy ambitious, because of all this garbage of a disorder. I pray we all heal
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Same hopefully one day we can all get through this
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Thats ocd for you man its suck but its ocd fuck this disorder. Ima send you a video on that
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This guy can help too. https://youtube.com/c/MehranDadbeh
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I’ve tried to start staying away from videos because it became a compulsion and form of reassurance but I think I need to watch a few of them in a healthy way
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I’ve seen a few of that guys videos I’ll have to see more tho thanks
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Eventually you come to this cross road where you rather be gay than deal with hocd.. until you get to that cross road and then accept the possibility that you might be gay you’ll never free yourself from hocd.
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I watched the video of that guy who said that. Yeah. It is very fuck@d up.
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I understand that point but i rather not be gay to be honest.
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@PaperTigerOCD Okay again.. that’s why you have hocd lol. You have to sacrifice yourself to this thing. I never got better from hocd until I accepted the possibility that I could be gay
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@PaperTigerOCD It sounds counterproductive but that’s how accepting uncertainty works. Same with response prevention. This thing is picking on your core fears. Turn it on its head. Go be gay for a day and sit with the uncertainty behind
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@Reassurance Destroyer I have accepted it’s possible I even feel convinced at times but it hasn’t gotten better
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@Jish03 First off it takes months to start getting results. Second off my guess is that you truly are not accepting the possibility cause you’re still in this NOCD group feed. Try again. Really give up to this thing my man and do it for days. Trust me.
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@Reassurance Destroyer I didn’t get better until I actually believed I could be gay.
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Okay I’m gonna try to ease off the forums (Reddit and NOCD group) bc if I try and cold turkey it imma fail. But I have also had some good conversations on both apps. But again it probably hurts more than helps
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Yup. I remember when I was posting in here when this thing first clicked. Throw out the rituals and sit with the anxiety. Learn to love the anxiety cause it’s what will help you get better. Seak it out
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I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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hey guys, i am really really struggling and i feel like crying. evry day i get this feeling of sexual attraction to the same gender, and i get those feelings even just thinking about it now. i hste them and want them to go away but they simply won’t and it has me thinking that this is just how my life is gonna be like. when i was fully healed or atleast thought i was healed from the false attraction and soocd, i still sometimes got that attraction feeling, and i would force my body not to feel it. i hated it and was scared of liking it so i would like stop breathing and make it stop. it was only ever occasional but this is making me concerned now too, because i still sometimes felt that feeling when i was healed. now currently my main trigger is masculine girls, but when my soocd first started i had no false attraction or attraction like this towards girls, and it was all just in my mind like saying, “don’t look at that girl or you’re gay.” there was one point in my soocd where i was worried about being attracted to my friends, but i am greatful in the sense of i know that that is not true and my main issue is the false attraction watching videos and i have experienced it once in real life too and i hated it. please lmk what i should do or even if you can relate. i am sick of feeling th is way, and i am a christian too so this makes it harder. i’ve tried everything like accepting it, or trying to even say to myself yes u do like it but it always just leads to me being scared.
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