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The OCD is provoking that on you. The OCD is like a virus that affects your computer and functions ( feelings, thoughts,sexual response etc). I mean it affects the way your brain is programming to work. So what the REP tries to reprogramming your brain by yourself.
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It just feels so real and I want to try erp but I’m scared I’ll figure out I’m actually homosexual if I try doing it
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Here is the link to a youtube video about groinal responses https://youtu.be/E7n1ZrJ_7-0
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Thanks bro I appreciate it
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@Jish03 Watch all of his videos bro. Ima send you another YouTube channel as well
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We all struggling bro im like on the same boat as you i cant even see my fucking friends, haven't felt alive, haven't felt like myself, haven't been wildy ambitious, because of all this garbage of a disorder. I pray we all heal
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Same hopefully one day we can all get through this
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Thats ocd for you man its suck but its ocd fuck this disorder. Ima send you a video on that
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This guy can help too. https://youtube.com/c/MehranDadbeh
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I’ve tried to start staying away from videos because it became a compulsion and form of reassurance but I think I need to watch a few of them in a healthy way
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I’ve seen a few of that guys videos I’ll have to see more tho thanks
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Eventually you come to this cross road where you rather be gay than deal with hocd.. until you get to that cross road and then accept the possibility that you might be gay you’ll never free yourself from hocd.
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I watched the video of that guy who said that. Yeah. It is very fuck@d up.
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I understand that point but i rather not be gay to be honest.
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@PaperTigerOCD Okay again.. that’s why you have hocd lol. You have to sacrifice yourself to this thing. I never got better from hocd until I accepted the possibility that I could be gay
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@PaperTigerOCD It sounds counterproductive but that’s how accepting uncertainty works. Same with response prevention. This thing is picking on your core fears. Turn it on its head. Go be gay for a day and sit with the uncertainty behind
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@Reassurance Destroyer I have accepted it’s possible I even feel convinced at times but it hasn’t gotten better
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@Jish03 First off it takes months to start getting results. Second off my guess is that you truly are not accepting the possibility cause you’re still in this NOCD group feed. Try again. Really give up to this thing my man and do it for days. Trust me.
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@Reassurance Destroyer I didn’t get better until I actually believed I could be gay.
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Okay I’m gonna try to ease off the forums (Reddit and NOCD group) bc if I try and cold turkey it imma fail. But I have also had some good conversations on both apps. But again it probably hurts more than helps
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Yup. I remember when I was posting in here when this thing first clicked. Throw out the rituals and sit with the anxiety. Learn to love the anxiety cause it’s what will help you get better. Seak it out
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hey guys, i am really really struggling and i feel like crying. evry day i get this feeling of sexual attraction to the same gender, and i get those feelings even just thinking about it now. i hste them and want them to go away but they simply won’t and it has me thinking that this is just how my life is gonna be like. when i was fully healed or atleast thought i was healed from the false attraction and soocd, i still sometimes got that attraction feeling, and i would force my body not to feel it. i hated it and was scared of liking it so i would like stop breathing and make it stop. it was only ever occasional but this is making me concerned now too, because i still sometimes felt that feeling when i was healed. now currently my main trigger is masculine girls, but when my soocd first started i had no false attraction or attraction like this towards girls, and it was all just in my mind like saying, “don’t look at that girl or you’re gay.” there was one point in my soocd where i was worried about being attracted to my friends, but i am greatful in the sense of i know that that is not true and my main issue is the false attraction watching videos and i have experienced it once in real life too and i hated it. please lmk what i should do or even if you can relate. i am sick of feeling th is way, and i am a christian too so this makes it harder. i’ve tried everything like accepting it, or trying to even say to myself yes u do like it but it always just leads to me being scared.
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So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
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I don’t know what to do with this bs anymore. I’m crying again and again and again and again. I cannot describe how painful this is. I’ve recovered from every single OCD subtype expect this one. HOCD is so scary and it’s so incredibly scary how it feels so real. The issue with this subtype is how intertwined it is with feelings and sensations. I hate how it keeps latching onto the past and uses the past as proof. I don’t want it to be the truth. I don’t want to accept any possibility.
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