Anonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
Thanks a million I’ll be there one day
BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 4y
You're welcome. Take your time. You're going to go through relapses. It's natural, so don't feel bad if you end up slipping through compulsions. You can use those as learning curves to get better and better. Just don't give up, you can do it! I believe in you.
BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 4y
Three words: Drop porn completely. Especially if you're using it to check if you aren't attracted to what your ocd tells you. Yeesh. That's not a hole you wanna fall into. Definitely not. Stop watching porn altogether. It does no favors for your mental health. You actually could end up desensitizing yourself to watching something you would regret seeing, so just drop porn in it's entirety.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
How have u managed to do that?
BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 4y
@Anonymous It was not easy. I began my journey of quitting way back in April. I remember when I struggled to put down spicy Instagram posts and accounts that offered such because I used to check if I was attracted to women still which did nothing but make me worse in the end. What made me want to quit porn in the first place is how awful it made me feel watching it, getting off to it, and worst of all, how it escalated video wise. This stuff really fucked me up to be honest and I'm still recovering. It's far from over even after 4 months has passed. What I do is I use an app called I Am Sober. It keeps track of how many days I've been off of pornography and masturbation. When I see another day being added to the total tally, it gives me more courage and hope to keep going. There are definitely times where I feel urges are there and I relapsed a few days ago with masturbation, but I'm still continuing. I'm using my relapse as a learning curve not to do it again. You can do it too! You can quit pornography and you don't have to let it take control over your life. You deserve a loving connection that's more than just pixels on a screen
AnonymousAnonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
How can you do that and does that mean I can become a pedophille?
BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 4y
No, not necessarily. There are people that can bring themselves to watch illegal videos but would never act out the things they see on their screens. Escalation simply occurs when the user is bored of the usual content and needs something more shocking or next level to keep their flow going. Just like drugs, which porn in fact is in my opinion. I even remember reading an article that had a guy explain that normal porn was boring and the only way to truly get the next hit was by watching CP. Whether he were a pedophile is unkown but this can happen to pretty much anyone if they aren't careful, which many porn users just aren't aware of such things. We have to remember that pedophilia is the sole attraction to persons 13 and under while they may have secondary attractions to adults. These people are usually inclined to act on their attractions in the real world and don't see it as a problem. POCD sufferers like us get repulsed by such a thing, yet our OCD has us worrying so much about something in our heads.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
It does for me I think i do use it for reassurance... idk its weird, like i get so scared about it
BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 4y
Yeah, DEFINITELY stop using it then. You just admitted that it's not even mainly for arousal purposes, rather reassurance. It was the same thing for me. Porn began to be very compulsive for me and people suffering through OCD in my opinion shouldn't watch it. This may be the exact thing that's heightening your anxiety and you could be confusing anxiety with arousal, like many people do. Please, for your mental health, just drop it. It'll be good for you.
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
But how do you stop watching porn if you have any advice
BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 4y
I left some advice from your first reply on the post. It's at the top
BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 4y
Actually, I have one extra piece of advice. Install porn blockers. Those can really help stop the urges. And if you get urges outside if your phone use or while in bed, try to get up and do something else that better focuses your energy. Meditation and mindfulness can help you too. And just think of all of the meaningful relationships and time you can spend with other people rather than watching videos that just exploit people. Freeing yourself from this will be good for you like it was for me!
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- 24w
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- Date posted
- 22w
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Anonymous
- Date posted
- 22w
Maybe it is OCD (please say anything)
I have no idea anymore. I guess this all started with me worrying about whether I was gay, then whether I was a P, then worried about being just attracted to teenagers. After that I started freaking out about not feeling “grown up” enough. Like “I’m an adult wtf is wrong with me for seeing someone who is probably younger and thinking they’re physically attractive. Then I started overthinking not finding older adults (like 30 or 40) very attractive. Like ofc I’m probably not gonna find them attractive, they’re not anywhere close my age. Maybe the desires are half real. Maybe as a 21 yr old young adult I do find older teenagers (16+) somewhat physically attractive. I still think it’d be weird to date one. Maybe that’s the normal reaction I’m supposed to have. If not, please let me know. I just don’t wanna do anything illegal one day and I’m super scared I will. I can’t tell if the fear is my just being afraid of the law though, in which case I might actually just be a bad person. I hate that my brain is just rationalizing thoughts now. I feel like I can’t do the ERP thing of “just accept that the thoughts are there but don’t engage.” Like what? How can I just think a thought that might be so integral to my identity and just ignore it? If it’s all true and I don’t like people my age anymore then I have to know and plan around that, that could change my entire life. I’m rambling, my b.
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