Real event ocd / POCD 18+ When I was 17, there was an artist named shadman who made loli content and other types of stuff... me being a minor at the time and not knowing what the term loli was, I had m/o'ed to it without realizing how horrible it was... and I stopped m/oing to it two years ago... I truly had no idea how horrible this stuff was... the artist who made it claims they are 18+ on their site but the fact they still looked like very young cartoon characters disturbs me... it's making me feel like I want it when I don't and all l want is a woman my age and above.. thinking about adult women always calms me down and relaxes me... I don't want to be a pedo at all.

You're not a pedo. This is your POCD calling. You are a good person! Pedo don't think like you, they like these disgustings things. You not!!! They don't think "I'm bad" they believe they are right. Stay safe!

Yeah people like the dude who made the content in the first place think they're right.

This was also my dilemma with POCD. I can get into shadman for hours but I’ll just leave it at he’s a nasty person…

I don’t ever want to be a pedo...

For hours? Damn, I would just cut that out completely. It's not surprising that OP is going through trauma about the shit he makes. Ain't this the same dude that made a IRL Loli about Keemstar's daughter, then took it down? I also heard homie flew his country to do more of this shit, like wtf? Idk if that's true, but my God. It's sickening how down bad people can be when it comes to sexual shit.

@POCDhell... Well if anyone is it’s shadman. You didn’t go out of ur ways to draw that junk. I know how it is completely, I was like 13 first seeing shadman and I hated his drawing and talked bad about them. By the age of 18 I was porn addicted and using his photos as fap material, of course that included a lot of his vulgar and fetish stuff. Still regret going that far in my addiction, maybe I wouldn’t have been in. Y current situation.

@NihonWarrior516 What a coincidence, I was 13 when this horrible journey started as well. When you're so addicted to this fucking filth, you don't even think about the things you're looking at because the only thing that matters is the next big hit, no matter how crazy the material is. So yeah, this Shadman guy is a really sick motherfucker for thinking nothing is wrong with this. One way or another, people know about his content. I can't even stand seeing jokes that have his name near it. If you are still struggling with porn addiction, I'd be more than glad to be someone to help you get out of it, friend.