I'm going through a lot rn, are people willing to listen??

Sure what’s up?

So Ive a girlfriend and we've been going out for a month now and I started to get rocd thoughts a while back and then I stopped getting them but now they're back and it's so hard. I keep thinking I don't like her anymore and I keep comparing our relationship to couples from tv shows and ocd keeps telling me that I'm forcing feelings and that I should break up with her and that would make me happy but I dont want to break up with her

I had this same thing with everyone I dated. It’s OCD and if you dump her you will the same thing happen in every relationship you get into. With ROCD we don’t get to focus on the normal infatuation and positive feelings of being in love. Enjoy them while they’re there but don’t rely on them, they’re not reliable. Don’t try to convince yourself that you are attracted or that she’s perfect for you. Making decisions of your own free will without needing certainty is key. Stick around, only break up if there’s an actual, real reason to. “What if I’m leading her on” or “I think I might not like this girl” is your OCD. Making a decision lowers the anxiety some. “Yeah, I might be making a huge mistake. Oh well. I’m gonna keep at it anyway.” Give yourself a time period and commit to it. Commit to staying for a week regardless of how you feel. Once you get to that week you’ll realize nothing terrible happened. Then you’ll be more comfortable committing, deciding to keep dating her for a month, regardless of how you feel. Keep increasing that time. Rather than saying “I either gotta be with her together forever or I need to break up now,” make room for that uncertainty. Eventually if she’s right for you you’ll get to where you might be comfortable saying yeah I’m gonna stick with her long term, but you may need to build to that. I had terrible ROCD when dating my now wife. When we got married the anxiety fortunately became manageable, because the finality of the decision was a powerful way of telling my OCD that I didn’t have to listen. I still have ROCD that pops up in different ways. But it isn’t crippling. Been married 7 years now, have a daughter. Good luck, you got this. Decisions/commitments over feelings, my friend.

Thank you so much

Im going to meet her later on and I'm so scared and anxious that im not gonna enjoy being with her and that I'm gonna be thinking 'why are you not having enough fun' that I'll end up not having fun because I'm over thinking everything