i think my early symptoms of ocd (scrupulosity themed i guess) are what led me to become non religious in my early teens. i would have intrusive thoughts about being possessed/being destined for hell and nothing at the time could relieve me of this distress. confiding these thoughts with others made me angry because i felt demonized for having them to begin with so i denounced my faith out of spite. ive come to realize how much ocd took from me and if i knew any better i probably would have stayed religious, but i dont really see myself going back to church any time soon. i hope acknowledging this is healthy for me. i suffered a lot during those years

my ocd has really been taking its toll on me lately. i feel completely unloved by God. i use to feel it, but now i just kinda feel a hole. i talk to Him everyday, and read devotionals. i spend time with Him. i just can’t feel Him. i know a relationship with God isn’t based on feelings, but on faith. i guess my faith is running a bit low. i’m just tired and my thoughts get worse. it’s like a roller coaster.

OCD has decided to latch onto my religion (Christianity) and I find myself doubting my belief in Jesus Christ. Yet when I research, I even find myself doubting the atheistic and agnostic approach as well. I’ve been a Christian since I was 13, growing up in a non-Christian in truth but nominally Christian household. This is rough. Any advice?

I been going to church looking for answers about my false memories if they are even false and overall ocd. Everything that I'm learning about ocd ultimately I get told that it's due to sin and that's why I feel overwhelmed and have the urge to confess on things idk if they are real or not. I just dont know whats my truth my mind Is saying one thing but I need a lot of confirmation if what im thinking its true thats why i been seeking confirmation going to church. Would appreciate a response or if anyone is going through this 🙏