i think my early symptoms of ocd (scrupulosity themed i guess) are what led me to become non religious in my early teens. i would have intrusive thoughts about being possessed/being destined for hell and nothing at the time could relieve me of this distress. confiding these thoughts with others made me angry because i felt demonized for having them to begin with so i denounced my faith out of spite. ive come to realize how much ocd took from me and if i knew any better i probably would have stayed religious, but i dont really see myself going back to church any time soon. i hope acknowledging this is healthy for me. i suffered a lot during those years