Fran223
- Date posted
- 4y
hollins7hollins7
- Date posted
- 4y
Hi Fran :) I deal with Harm OCD. It's more toward harming others, but I do get these thoughts sometimes. It always feels real for a second, a minute, or even a few mins, but then it doesn't. Just remember: If you're wondering if it's OCD, it is OCD. If you're scared you're going to do it, you probably won't. Those are things I've learned, heard, gathered from having OCD for over 13 years. I hope this helps you. :)
Fran223Fran223
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- 4y
Thank you so much I’m just gonna have to remind myself of this Constantly. I’m still in my healing process to recovery so I have to understand this will get easier with time.
Cameron1!Cameron1!
- Date posted
- 4y
I understand, I too fear suicide. It’s hard when others don’t understand because you truly don’t want to die or for things to ever come to that. You aren’t alone. Typically people with OCD have very pure hearts and feel overly responsible for others and themselves. It’s a blessing and a curse. Focus on the blessing portion, kindness and empathy is our super powers.
DrvmstickDrvmstick
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- 4y
Hey, I have a different subtype but I also struggle more in the morning. I think it’s important to remember that it’s temporary. If you feel an urge to ruminate or do a compulsion you can tell yourself “I’m not going to do that. I’m gonna sit with the anxiety and hold out until it goes down later because I know my anxiety goes down as the day goes on”. Makes getting through it a little easier for me Also if you can help it try to avoid/limit your caffeine. But I know that can be hard, I need my coffee 😬
Cameron1!Cameron1!
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- 4y
Often times OCD strips our confidence in ourselves. Which makes us believe so little in our abilities to cope and believe the lies that we’re capable of our scary thoughts. In my personal journey I try to do things to support my confidence and my strength to overcome and grow. I lean into believing recovery is possible and I am able. The more confident I am in this, the less scary the thoughts naturally become.
Fran223Fran223
- Date posted
- 4y
Thank you. I tell myself this as well leaning towards recovery as possible. Then it leads into other OCD fears like I need electroshock therapy or I’ll never be happy and eventually commit suicide stuff like that. Please keep up with confidence!!
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