I’m having such a bad day, my rocd has gone back up and I’m feeling fearful which only makes it worse. I hate the way it makes me feel. That and I feel sick from it, my boyfriend is something I value greatly and our relationship and this makes me feel so horrible. I do know it’s not true but that doesn’t stop it from making me feel this way, I’ve been trying hard to not react to the thoughts and i can’t seem to.

It’s just so weird... it’s like I forget how to get over it everytime and that I can overcome it. I’ll be smiling at him and my head is just like ‘you don’t love him’ or something and I was seeing him crying in my head today.. I just feel like puking honestly. I feel scared and I know it’s making it worse.. I need to be brave but I feel so scared rn. Then it’ll tell me if I want to spend time alone or enjoy time by myself I don’t love him.. I hate it.

That’s exactly what it says to me about my boyfriend too. I know I love him, and I know he’s a great person. I think I’ve just been hurt so much I want to make sure I have the right person so my mind goes into overprotective mode and overthinks and doubts everything. Anxiety likes to attack the things we love most :/ wanting time for yourself doesn’t mean you don’t love him as you know but our minds like to lie ? maybe when you get super overwhelmed with the thoughts it would help if you made it positive and did something really nice for him? Like make him cookies or get him a cute stuffed animal or something! Show your love for him! ?

If you need anyone to talk to I’m here ?????

I relate I relate I relate ??

That’s a great idea I was just thinking about getting him his fav energy drink

Do it do it! ? you can beat anxiety!

Thanks guys! I’ve been watching anime with him he just went to work but things feel a bit better now? Hoping I can keep the right mindset