So I’m panicking a bit now and I keep thinking what if this is denial? And Idk but ocd can change from POCD to SO-OCD? Like it change from any theme right I just feel so worried and I really want a guy to be my life partner and I’m feeling like I’m loosing attraction or something towards them..

I feel the same way sometimes, it was worse months ago, something I did to help with the SO-OCD was whenever I had an intrusive thought I didn't like, I'd laugh at it, I'd give it nothing to feed off of, and I stopped avoiding it, charge in head first like a bull it may be scary, but you will come out feeling better