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Yes!! I have done a pretty good job at ignoring the girl. I mean our brains are incredibly powerful and dreams can feel so real but that doesn’t mean that it’s connected to our character. How do you cope?
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When I first experienced synptoms of OCD in the form of intrusive thoughts, a lot of them were sexual themes and with my family. I was homeschooled and not socialized very well. So, anyway, the themes were arrached to family. I had dreams about my sisters of all things, that seemed real and left me feeling guilty. What I know now is that my brain was misfiring and all the while I was assigning meaning to the feelings and thoughts which gave them power. TODAY I know that I am in control of what power I give a thought and that even if I am decieved for a moment and agree with the feeling &/or thought it still does not make it true but DOES make me miserable. I hope you are able to take the power back ♥️
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Thanks for the advice! I realize that this is what OCD is but when Im in the middle of a spike that logical thinking just goes out the window I revert back to living in fear of my obsessions being true!!
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Watch the live from last night, they were talking about past memories and how ocd attacks them.
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What is the Live? Is it a show?
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I haven’t quite learned how to cope with it as of yet... my brain connects the feelings with my obsessions to make me think that they’re true. I just don’t know what to do about it!!
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Idk why i typed “girl” 🤣 i’m queen of typos
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Omg this is me right now. I could just cry. I want my life back but the intrusive thoughts I get are so disgusting and fucked up it instantly makes me feel so upset and physically sick
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I’m so sorry for the overwhelming feelings of guilt, shame, and disgust. I guess at some point I had to decide if I could forgive myself for trying to understand, check, and investigate the thoughts which made me feel like they were a part of my character. I decided to give myself a break, knowing Inhad “survived” for all of my life. That was the first step, and then I reminded myself of who I am, my true self, the self that hated my own obsessions because they were the worst things that I could imagine would happen to me, but was still obsessing over them. My clue here was that I was not comfortable and therefore this could not be me. I didn’t want to sit in that mess but I felt like I was drowning. Without playing the victim, I did realize that OCD was a separate entity of sorts and I had been the subject or torture. As long as I knew it was not my true desire to stay where I was I was able to let the thoughts, feelings, urges, and sensations carry on without giving them the energy of my whole self. This is the basis of my belief and although I have bad days, I know today they are as meaningful as I give them attention.
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@Anonymous Thanks for sharing! This definitely really helps, I think it’s just hard for me because my OCD likes to target past memories of mine and keep asking what if until I constantly worry about this worst case scenario in my head, and I often feel so defeated because my OCD becomes so strong that I can’t think logically.
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@Anonymous I just saved this because it’s quite inspirational. Thankyou
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like not bad dreams but not good dreams if that makes sense? i had one last night where i was imagining my entire family being at our house or something but i mean it was like this whole thing like a holiday maybe? i can’t remember exactly. anyways—then, before i woke up i started seeing and hearing things/people in my dream and then i died somehow..? and then all what i was seeing and hearing changed to ghosts.. not sure if this means anything or not but thank you for listening i really do appreciate it! 🩷🩷 has anyone else had dreams like this? or just randomly start to have constant dreams and then they go away for a little while then come back again?
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Is it possible to have been living your life well and enjoying your days but have been physically hurting people without knowing? Like you are always aware of your actions right? I have this terrible feeling that I hurt one of my students and went through an entire week either blacking it out or not realizing. But it’s something I feel like you should realize. A disturbing dream seems to have triggered this.
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Hi everyone, This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write. I’ve struggled with POCD for a while — intrusive thoughts that go against everything I believe in. I’ve never acted on them before. I’ve always been terrified of them and done everything to avoid them. But something happened the other night that I can’t stop replaying, and it’s tearing me apart. I was in that in-between state — not fully asleep, not fully awake. I was dreaming that something was “okay,” and in that moment, I moved my child’s hand toward me in a way I now feel completely ashamed of. I wasn’t aware of fully choosing it, but I remember it. I remember that it felt like I was following the dream, like my brain said it was okay. And the part I can’t stop obsessing over — that’s destroying me — is that in the dream, my child said, “no.” That moment makes me feel like the worst human being on the planet. I don’t know if he said it out loud or if it was part of the dream. But it felt real, and now I feel broken. I love my child more than anything. The fact that this happened — even in a foggy, dreamlike state — makes me feel like I crossed an unforgivable line. I’m not here to excuse it. I’m not here to get reassurance that it didn’t happen. I’m just trying to find someone — anyone — who has experienced something like this. Acting or moving in a way during sleep or semi-consciousness that your waking self would never do. I don’t know how to live with this guilt. I feel sick, ashamed, and like I’ve ruined everything. Please be kind. I’ve never felt more alone in my life, and I don’t know how to move forward from this.
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