Omg yes. Where like I plan an entire thing out and that maybe I CAN go through with it and it’s just scary LMFAO like wtf is wrong with me? But then I’m like bro why did I just think all of that?
Omg, mine scared me cause this is the first time this has happened Really? That makes me feel so much better, I have OCD like religious I think I got from watching scary movies because it was about the “bad guy” (don’t like saying the name) But it was about my crush and I had recently been thinking about my crush and I’ve never had this thought before but I always get happy when I think about my crush and get butterflies and like an exciting feeling when I think about my crush and I was just sitting there watching tv I don’t remember what I thought before the bad thought but I guess randomly I thought if “bad guy” Gave me my crush I’d totally take it! And when I thought those words I felt excited and that I REALLY BADLY wanted to do it then i was like “ WHAT?!” And I’ve been scared ever since because I truly wanted to do it in the moment like if I was to say I want that puppy or I really want to play that new video game I’ve been waiting for, for weeks that’s exactly how that bad thought was! That’s why I was worried it was really me I’ve been hoping it was just my OCD
Omg I can’t say certain names or anything like that either BC I GET SCARED AHH. But no omg. I mean if you’re feeling bad afterwards and regretted it than I think that speaks for itself! Bc like you said like in that moment you felt reallt excited AND THEN WERE LIKE UMMM????? Bc you realized you were probably like not tooooo serious about it ya know?
Yeah I understand! And it’s hard finding people that has done the same as that so it always scared me me, and my mind is like “well maybe you’re only scared because you know it’s wrong and not actually cause you don’t want it” and it tries telling me even when someone says they know what I’m talking about thoughts like “yeah but you really did want it maybe other peoples is just a what if and not a true want” and “it was really you, not OCD” and i keep thinking about it over and over trying to change it to make sure it wasn’t me but I can’t and can’t convince myself 😭
It’s like arguing with yourself it really is but i do that too like how do I know I don’t REALLY want to? Like maybe my morals are all a lie ?? But then I just go back and forth with myself and it’s like WHAT even and WHO even are my thoughts. But you’re still questioning it so it just shows that you are remorseful and like don’t not care! Bc if you really had wanted to you would’ve already and not been asking. Deep down you probably know but you just have to trust the voice in your head that you WANT to believe if that helps <3
I’m glad I’m not the only one I mean I never would have worried about it but the fact I really wanted to do it for that second is what got me like this, like when you want your crush really badly and like how badly I want my crush you know how that feels right? Like it’s such a genuinely true want! You know? that’s how the want for that thought was! and I’m like “oh gosh!” It would be so much better if I never had the thought ugh
Yes me with harm ocd thoughts
Really? So I’m not the only one, most people doesn’t really feel the way I do so I freak out more you when you have thoughts, you actually really want to do them? Like seriously really want to do them, I mean a TRUE WANT like you’d want your favorite snack or drink, that type of want? Then get scared after
@Username🤷🏻♀️ Yes I feel this then I feel like I want to do it and am about to then I freak out and distract myself :( I don’t understand it at all. Months ago never had thoughts like this. It’s scary how the brain can do this to us
@ocdsuxxx It’s scary how it can make you truly want to do something! 🥺 I’m sorry you’re going through this I didn’t use to worry about religious stuff like I do, either but here lately they have been bad 😭 I can usually deal with just my thoughts.... but since I truly wanted to do it like seriously wanted to do it I can’t get over it... I’m glad I’m not alone though